Hey, if you're reading
this I miss you
much.
I wish
you were here
right now to tell
me that
stupid boy isn't
worth my tears.
I wish you were here to hold me close and make stupid jokes about how you're gonna shoot him when you see him again.
I wish you were here right now to comfort me and take me to McDonald's and get me that big dumb junky order of fries, a milkshake, and a double cheeseburger, and then make fun of me for dipping the fries in the milkshake. I wish you were here right now to walk 4 miles in the middle of the night Pokémon hunting with me.
I wish you were here right now to tell me you don't even notice that dumb pimple.
I wish you were here right now to check up on me every couple of minutes, because I use to get so annoyed.
I wish you were with me giving me advice on what the hell I should do right now.
I wish you were here to hold me close and make stupid jokes about how you're gonna shoot him when you see him again.
I wish you were here right now to comfort me and take me to McDonald's and get me that big dumb junky order of fries, a milkshake, and a double cheeseburger, and then make fun of me for dipping the fries in the milkshake. I wish you were here right now to walk 4 miles in the middle of the night Pokémon hunting with me.
I wish you were here right now to tell me you don't even notice that dumb pimple.
I wish you were here right now to check up on me every couple of minutes, because I use to get so annoyed.
I wish you were with me giving me advice on what the hell I should do right now.
I took you
for granted, and I miss you
much.
“If
you can’t disagree with a woman without reaching for all
those filthy old insults, screw
you and your politics.
“I’m sick of ‘liberal’ men whose mask slips every time a woman displeases them, who reach immediately for crude and humiliating words.
“When you do this, Mr. Liberal Cool Guy, you ally yourself, wittingly or not, with the men who send women violent p.ornographic images and r.ape threats, who try by every means possible to intimidate women out of politics and public spaces, both real and digital.
“Every woman I know who has dared express an opinion publicly has endured this kind of abuse at least once, rooted in an apparent determination to humiliate or intimidate her on the basis that she is female.
“Femaleness is not a design flaw. If your immediate response to a woman who displeases you is to call her a synonym for her v.ulva, or compare her to a p.rostitute, then drop the pretense and own it: you're not a liberal.”
—J.K. Rowling
“I’m sick of ‘liberal’ men whose mask slips every time a woman displeases them, who reach immediately for crude and humiliating words.
“When you do this, Mr. Liberal Cool Guy, you ally yourself, wittingly or not, with the men who send women violent p.ornographic images and r.ape threats, who try by every means possible to intimidate women out of politics and public spaces, both real and digital.
“Every woman I know who has dared express an opinion publicly has endured this kind of abuse at least once, rooted in an apparent determination to humiliate or intimidate her on the basis that she is female.
“Femaleness is not a design flaw. If your immediate response to a woman who displeases you is to call her a synonym for her v.ulva, or compare her to a p.rostitute, then drop the pretense and own it: you're not a liberal.”
—J.K. Rowling
I'm left crying on the floor because God won't have me.
Glad to know that now school has finished, a good friend of mine,
who has also been a ex bf too many times (some say me being used
multiple times is a more correct description of it) has now
literally blocked me on almost every social media I have them on,
when nothing even happened apart from us both leaving school. Glad
to know someone I cared about a great deal, probably never once
cared about me
Just a little rant. why the hell you hate me I loved you and
clearly u lied about that and almost completely broke me because u
had "stuff going on" and you've " never had a shy girlfriend
before" despite me doing more with you than I have ever And you
daily call me a sl*g, sl*t and wh*re because that makes total sense
right? When I said no to certain things? You told me u wouldn't be
"like him" and say u love me and then dump me shortly after and u
did exactly that in less than a week. You got me to love you and
left. And you have the nerve to tell all my friends 8 months later
stuff they didn't need to be told like I'm in the wrong. I actually
hate you now. I hate u so much. Just a rant I needed to get out
yes hello, my name is hanna, and i fail at life.
i filled out applications, never got an email so I didn't bother checking the messages on my answering machine (because they were places I applied to before. I always got an email before a call.) and now here I am, over a week late, to a call for a job position. I AM SUCH A... GAAAH. here's to hoping they still are interested in me when I call tomorrow.
i filled out applications, never got an email so I didn't bother checking the messages on my answering machine (because they were places I applied to before. I always got an email before a call.) and now here I am, over a week late, to a call for a job position. I AM SUCH A... GAAAH. here's to hoping they still are interested in me when I call tomorrow.
Why do men have to be so difficult? Why do real relationships take
so much work? I thought that once I had Aurora he would grow up at
least a little more. He still hardly listens to me though. And in
order to get him to do what he needs to I have to not just tell him
but also show him how I'm upset after he hasn't done it after so
many times of being told. I'm afraid to move back in with him
because I don't think things will change for the better. I love
him, I really really do. But he needs to be a good dad for Aurora,
and he needs to be a good boyfriend to me. He also really needs to
get his priorities straight.
so, I am turning 21 in march (too old for this site? maybe. but I
shall never leave.) and I wanted a bottle of Viniq as my gift. my
mom got it for me super early, which I didn't really want. I wanted
it on my birthday for my birthday. but oh well. anyway, she got it
for me early, but still said it was my present. AND THEN SHE DRANK
IT. like am I the only one that thinks it's messed up when your
need for alcohol is bad enough that you have to take away your
daughter's birthday gift? I was saving the rest for my godmother to
try. but she drank it. she didn't even like it.
I'm gonna rant (because my Facebook friends say stupid crap that
ticks me off), so yknow, skip it if you ain't with it
(Obviously based on my own experience, but I left out a good bit to keep is some what broad)
I honestly can't stand it when someone talks about abusive relationships like it is a super easy thing to deal with. It isn't. So many people act like abusers start out smacking you around from the beginning, and that you're just an idiot for staying. I can't say it's never like that, but it's definitely not always like that. Sometimes it starts out as emotional abuse. Subtle at first, where you don't even notice it happening. Backhanded compliments that slowly chip away your self esteem, laying on the guilt over mundane things until you start to feel like the horrible one, putting you down while boosting themselves up. Then it slowly shifts to direct insults. Before you know it, you start to think you deserve that kind of treatment, that they're the best you can get. It's worse if you have people in your life that shame you into the relationship in the first place, which is common (particularly for females.) The "but he's a nice guy, don't be so shallow and rude." kind of lines, that tell women they're not good enough to reject guys they're not interested in, while telling the guys they are better than the women. Which is a whole other issue for another time. Anyway, eventually you're in an emotionally abusive relationship, and you still might not even notice it. Abuse makes for an uncomfortable conversation, so no one ever says anything, so you think it's normal. They occasionally break up the harshness with kindness, which makes you feel lucky briefly. When physical abuse does come into the picture, they play it off as a joke at first. They apologize, and even throw in some tears, and you believe it because "aw. they're crying. they obviously mean it." Everything is fine. You think it's normal to "play" wrestle your partner, even if it hurts too much and leaves bruises, and you have to beg to get them to stop... which they still might not do (but boys like to wrestle and get carried away.. and boys will be boys, right?...) You don't realize that it's not normal to have to apologize profusely over talking to someone they didn't pre-approve of. You didn't realize it isn't normal to constantly be on edge because if you didn't answer the phone or text back instantly, they would threaten to come track you down (and you don't really want to be near them, especially when angry, so you always try to answer.) Eventually, they hit you, and they don't even pretend that they were playing. It kind of knocks some sense into you, and you start to realize it isn't normal. Unfortunately, you also realize this person scares you. This person that you've never successfully gotten off of you. This person you've never been able to fight back. So, yeah, you stay. You don't know what else to do. Everyone sees the bruises, and you don't even lie about them. Every time you try to leave, they either threaten to kill themselves or you. They justify everything by saying it was your own fault. You might eventually find your voice and fight back when they verbally bully you, and it escalates to more violence. Your neck is their favorite place to go. "I'm just joking" choking turns into actual choking. Which is something a lot of people don't come back from. It's a real slap in the face to imply that victims have lost their lives all because they chose not leave, and imply that they're just stubborn because it's "easy to leave."
How I got out of my relationship: he was the kinda guy that would look for someone better while with me (caught him multiple times but he wouldn't leave me and I couldn't be the one to leave him.. fear), so I made a fake Facebook with my friend and we flirted with him over it until he dumped me and we kept it up until it I knew he wouldn't come back and beg me to get back with him (fear.) it was successful. He thought it was his idea so there was no fake crying, threats, promises, other manipulative crap. He still stalks me occasionally, tho. Which is scary.
(Obviously based on my own experience, but I left out a good bit to keep is some what broad)
I honestly can't stand it when someone talks about abusive relationships like it is a super easy thing to deal with. It isn't. So many people act like abusers start out smacking you around from the beginning, and that you're just an idiot for staying. I can't say it's never like that, but it's definitely not always like that. Sometimes it starts out as emotional abuse. Subtle at first, where you don't even notice it happening. Backhanded compliments that slowly chip away your self esteem, laying on the guilt over mundane things until you start to feel like the horrible one, putting you down while boosting themselves up. Then it slowly shifts to direct insults. Before you know it, you start to think you deserve that kind of treatment, that they're the best you can get. It's worse if you have people in your life that shame you into the relationship in the first place, which is common (particularly for females.) The "but he's a nice guy, don't be so shallow and rude." kind of lines, that tell women they're not good enough to reject guys they're not interested in, while telling the guys they are better than the women. Which is a whole other issue for another time. Anyway, eventually you're in an emotionally abusive relationship, and you still might not even notice it. Abuse makes for an uncomfortable conversation, so no one ever says anything, so you think it's normal. They occasionally break up the harshness with kindness, which makes you feel lucky briefly. When physical abuse does come into the picture, they play it off as a joke at first. They apologize, and even throw in some tears, and you believe it because "aw. they're crying. they obviously mean it." Everything is fine. You think it's normal to "play" wrestle your partner, even if it hurts too much and leaves bruises, and you have to beg to get them to stop... which they still might not do (but boys like to wrestle and get carried away.. and boys will be boys, right?...) You don't realize that it's not normal to have to apologize profusely over talking to someone they didn't pre-approve of. You didn't realize it isn't normal to constantly be on edge because if you didn't answer the phone or text back instantly, they would threaten to come track you down (and you don't really want to be near them, especially when angry, so you always try to answer.) Eventually, they hit you, and they don't even pretend that they were playing. It kind of knocks some sense into you, and you start to realize it isn't normal. Unfortunately, you also realize this person scares you. This person that you've never successfully gotten off of you. This person you've never been able to fight back. So, yeah, you stay. You don't know what else to do. Everyone sees the bruises, and you don't even lie about them. Every time you try to leave, they either threaten to kill themselves or you. They justify everything by saying it was your own fault. You might eventually find your voice and fight back when they verbally bully you, and it escalates to more violence. Your neck is their favorite place to go. "I'm just joking" choking turns into actual choking. Which is something a lot of people don't come back from. It's a real slap in the face to imply that victims have lost their lives all because they chose not leave, and imply that they're just stubborn because it's "easy to leave."
How I got out of my relationship: he was the kinda guy that would look for someone better while with me (caught him multiple times but he wouldn't leave me and I couldn't be the one to leave him.. fear), so I made a fake Facebook with my friend and we flirted with him over it until he dumped me and we kept it up until it I knew he wouldn't come back and beg me to get back with him (fear.) it was successful. He thought it was his idea so there was no fake crying, threats, promises, other manipulative crap. He still stalks me occasionally, tho. Which is scary.
