You're back in my life--and I'm still sad.
I just wish
you loved me the way you love
her.
You weren’t made of magic, and you
didn’t have galaxies in your eyes. You were just a boy
with a crooked smile who told me I was beautiful. Now,
you’re a fleeting memory–nothing more than a
whisper in the wind.
(338/365) by (DS)
​well when i went to see you today
it was so upset everyone cry
im trying to hold back my tears
to be there for everyone else
i can lose you
your a big part of my life and i would
be lost without you here
it was so upset everyone cry
im trying to hold back my tears
to be there for everyone else
i can lose you
your a big part of my life and i would
be lost without you here
sad but rad
“
Sad
people have the gift of time, while the world dizzies everyone
else; they remain stagnant, their bodies refusing to follow pace
with the universe. With these kind of people everything aches for
too long, everything moves without rush, wounds are always
wet.—Warsan Shire
”
“
Sadness
gives depth. Happiness gives height. Sadness gives roots.
Happiness gives branches. Happiness is like a tree going into the
sky, and sadness is like the roots going down into the womb of
the earth. Both are needed, and the higher a tree goes, the
deeper it goes, simultaneously. The bigger the tree, the bigger
will be its roots. In fact, it is always in proportion.
That’s its balance.
”
As of late, i seem to not be able to remember
who I am, Not a a person, but as a spirit. Those who i left my
trust and faith in have been seeming to dim. The lights from my
life, slowing fading from existance. People always tell me that im
important and that i matter a lot to them. It doesnt seem like it.
It seems more and more painful. Honestly, i seem to be hating
myself for it as well. Like it my fault for this. Ive come to terms
with this before. Although it gets worse each time it happens. So
far worse that ive been reverting back to my previous stages in
life. When i didnt have friends. It doesnt appear like i have
friends. My "friends" say that they care about
me.
I think about why i should even bother. I feel like im losing. Like there is no point in trying to even live my life. But everytime i do i feel dead. I have this selfhatred, that seems to be boiling like a pool of hot blood fresh from my dying body. I cant even see into my eyes anymore. Into my very soul.
Do i even have my soul?
It just feels like this empty void that is just circulating in my body. Not knowing what to do. Wether to wake up or stay dormant, ill never know.
Maybe one day ill be able to solve the mystery of how i truly died. Not a corpse but as a living husk that just walks around for days, months, even years. I remember when i used to laugh, about nothing at all it was better than going mad. But now i cant solve any problems i have. I just cant live on like this anymore. I want to try being better than i already am but everyone keeps pushing me down. Like im not important, Some people barely remember my own name. I barely get to remember my own name. I rarely get to hear it anymore.
My name is.....
I think about why i should even bother. I feel like im losing. Like there is no point in trying to even live my life. But everytime i do i feel dead. I have this selfhatred, that seems to be boiling like a pool of hot blood fresh from my dying body. I cant even see into my eyes anymore. Into my very soul.
Do i even have my soul?
It just feels like this empty void that is just circulating in my body. Not knowing what to do. Wether to wake up or stay dormant, ill never know.
Maybe one day ill be able to solve the mystery of how i truly died. Not a corpse but as a living husk that just walks around for days, months, even years. I remember when i used to laugh, about nothing at all it was better than going mad. But now i cant solve any problems i have. I just cant live on like this anymore. I want to try being better than i already am but everyone keeps pushing me down. Like im not important, Some people barely remember my own name. I barely get to remember my own name. I rarely get to hear it anymore.
My name is.....
