If I told you my
secrets,
you wouldn't
look at me the
same.
"Everyone has a secret they haven't shared, a past no one has heard about, and talents that people don't notice. Everyone has a weakness hidden inside, and everyone has a story left untold. So never start judging someone thinking you know everything there is to know about them. Because truth is, you probably don't." -Anonymous
In spanish class yesterday
I was sitting next to a girl who was always smiling and
helping others whenever I saw her. When she was writing I
couldn't help but notice how her shirt slid up a bit.
The sight of so many scars made me want to cry
and give her a hug. It was obvious no one knew. But
I wasn't about to tell her secret, so I got her
attention, pulled down my own sleeve to let her know, and
then showed her the semicolon on my wrist. She showed me her
other wrist, and she also had a semicolon. In that moment, we
could have cared less about the class. All that
mattered was that we knew we weren't alone in this
battle.
You fake a smile to hide the pain
You only cry when it's pouring rain
You wear longsleeves to hide the cuts
You'd tell them all, but you don't have the guts
You only cry when it's pouring rain
You wear longsleeves to hide the cuts
You'd tell them all, but you don't have the guts
I thought best friends
told eachother everything
told eachother everything
Today I went to my cousins because we are planning our family
vacation. I was sitting in my 9 year old cousins bedroom while she
and her sister (7) painted my nails. My cousin gave me a bracelet.
I said I loved it because it matched all my other ones. The glowing
look on her face was amazing. And then I started thinking
about what those bracelets were hiding. And I looked at my cousins
and thought about how small and innocent they are. And I looked at
the wrist full of bracelets she was giving away my 9 year old
cousin was wearing and thought about how I am so glad those
bracelets aren't hiding anything. If they had to go through
what I go through, if either of those amazing little girls were to
make slits on their skin, I don't know what I would do. And I
remember I was a little girl like that too once. A little girl that
people probably looked at and said "I hope she has a wonderful
life." Now look at where I am now. Bracelets masking secrets
and voices in my head. And today I vow not to let those little
girls grow up and hurt like that. And hopefully I can learn
something from them too. Because I know I can't stay strong for
myself but they are the 2 people in my family that will always give
me hugs and fight for my attention, and I want to be something for
them to look up to, not something they dread to become.
