My best friend was crying on me today and she said " It would
be better if I just disappeared"
I told her this, and I'm going to tell you the same thing-- to anyone who is considering it, or has attemped suicide. This is for anyone who ever wonders, " What if I just wasn't here?"
The world doesn't just go on because you're gone. People will be affected by you, whether you know it or not. What about you're family? Sure you may feel like they hate you at times, but I'm sure they'd be up everynight wondering what happened to their baby. They'd keep your door shut so that they could believe that just for a second you were in there not wanting to be disturbed. And everytime someone asked them how you're doing, they'd break down in tears. What about your girlfriend/boyfriend? How would they feel when you were gone? Who knows if they might do the same? And what about all the people who didn't even know you? You may be thinking that they wouldn't notice. I'm telling you that you're wrong. Last year, a guy name Spencer Tate killed himself. He went to my school- the grade below me. I didn't know him. Yet I felt crushed. I had never before heard the halls in my school so silent when we found out. A lot of people were crying. A lot. I ended up having to go to counsling every week because I couldn't deal with the pain from his death. It affected me so much that it made me want to live my life for him, because his was cut so short. I think about him everyday, and I didn't even know his face....What about your closest friend? I'm sure as all hell they'd miss you like crazy. They'd stay up for nights on end wondering why. Why didnt they do something. Why didn't they see?
So please don't tell me that the world would be better off without you, or that you would just be better off dead. I'm telling you right now that even though you don't know it-- people do notice you. People do love you. People do want to help you. And there would be so many hurt by your death. I know it may hurt right now. Who knows? It might've even gotten to the point where you don't feel anything. You may be broken down right now, but I promise you that you are not beaten! You may have to fight a little harder, a little longer just to see that light at the end of the tunnel, but I promise you it's there. You may feel like you're falling through endless darkness afriad that no one will be there to catch you when you reach the end, but I promise you someone will.
Please. Think about your worth. Every person has it. Every person deserves to live. I am here. I will help you if you need it. Please. You are important. You are worth it. You are stronger than this.
I told her this, and I'm going to tell you the same thing-- to anyone who is considering it, or has attemped suicide. This is for anyone who ever wonders, " What if I just wasn't here?"
The world doesn't just go on because you're gone. People will be affected by you, whether you know it or not. What about you're family? Sure you may feel like they hate you at times, but I'm sure they'd be up everynight wondering what happened to their baby. They'd keep your door shut so that they could believe that just for a second you were in there not wanting to be disturbed. And everytime someone asked them how you're doing, they'd break down in tears. What about your girlfriend/boyfriend? How would they feel when you were gone? Who knows if they might do the same? And what about all the people who didn't even know you? You may be thinking that they wouldn't notice. I'm telling you that you're wrong. Last year, a guy name Spencer Tate killed himself. He went to my school- the grade below me. I didn't know him. Yet I felt crushed. I had never before heard the halls in my school so silent when we found out. A lot of people were crying. A lot. I ended up having to go to counsling every week because I couldn't deal with the pain from his death. It affected me so much that it made me want to live my life for him, because his was cut so short. I think about him everyday, and I didn't even know his face....What about your closest friend? I'm sure as all hell they'd miss you like crazy. They'd stay up for nights on end wondering why. Why didnt they do something. Why didn't they see?
So please don't tell me that the world would be better off without you, or that you would just be better off dead. I'm telling you right now that even though you don't know it-- people do notice you. People do love you. People do want to help you. And there would be so many hurt by your death. I know it may hurt right now. Who knows? It might've even gotten to the point where you don't feel anything. You may be broken down right now, but I promise you that you are not beaten! You may have to fight a little harder, a little longer just to see that light at the end of the tunnel, but I promise you it's there. You may feel like you're falling through endless darkness afriad that no one will be there to catch you when you reach the end, but I promise you someone will.
Please. Think about your worth. Every person has it. Every person deserves to live. I am here. I will help you if you need it. Please. You are important. You are worth it. You are stronger than this.
it's crazy how much i crave
hurting
myself.
MY THROAT TIGHTENS FILLING UP WITH
PAIN AND I WANT TO SCREAM BUT I CAN'T AND IT HURTS SO MUCH
AND ALL I CAN DO IS THINK OF PICKING UP A BLADE SLASHING OVER AND
OVER AGAIN WAITING FOR THE PAIN TO TEAR IT RIGHT OUT OF ME BUT
THEN IT COMES BACK SO I SLASH AND SLASH DESPERATE FOR A RELEASE
THAT I CAN'T REACH. I'M TRYING SO HARD TO SCREAM AND TO
CRY BUT I CAN'T. there's something about the blood and
that shiny piece of metal that grasps my full attention until
finally it all stops. i feel numb. tired. finally. i feel
nothing.
To the girls and guys that stay up til' 3 a.m.
To the girls and guys that cy from their wrists, not their eyes.
To the girls and guys that believe they have no reason to wake up in the morning.
To the girls and guys that would rather die than live another day.
To the girls and guys whos stomachs growl but ignore it anyway.
To the girls and guys who decide to put away the pills, gun or blade and live another day. <--- TO THE STRONG...
To the girls and guys that cy from their wrists, not their eyes.
To the girls and guys that believe they have no reason to wake up in the morning.
To the girls and guys that would rather die than live another day.
To the girls and guys whos stomachs growl but ignore it anyway.
To the girls and guys who decide to put away the pills, gun or blade and live another day. <--- TO THE STRONG...
I was a year clean and I've
relapsed... I'm sorry guys :(
IF YOU DONT WANT TO SEE
MY CUTS,
DONT BE THE ONE THAT FU/KING CAUSES THEM.
DONT BE THE ONE THAT FU/KING CAUSES THEM.
It takes a lot of
self hate
for someone that is
loved by many
to take a blade to their skin
because their mind tells them
that they don't fit in.
