I gave up.
I literally gave up, I may regret
it in the future. But you know them marks people have on their
arms?
I used to have them, well i still have faded marks. But now i've added more marks, to the faded marks.
After a few good months, I knew it was too good to be true.
I used to have them, well i still have faded marks. But now i've added more marks, to the faded marks.
After a few good months, I knew it was too good to be true.
Only fashion
Just jewelry
Meaning nothing
They weren't covering secrets
darkness
giving up
scars
But now that's all they really do
Just jewelry
Meaning nothing
They weren't covering secrets
darkness
giving up
scars
But now that's all they really do
Bracelets
Wonder if my mum thinks I tell the
truth. Or if she thinks I'm still a liar. I wonder if my
boyfriend thinks the same thing. Because all it would take would be
for them to lift up my t shirt to my hips and make me take off my
bracelets and wristbands which are carefully placed up to my elbow
for them to realise that I'm lying
SELF HARM IS NOT
PRETTY. STOP
GLORIFYING IT,
IT'S A
SERIOUS MENTAL
ILLNESS
"Wrists,
they're just there. They have no other purpose other than to
make a connection with the hand.
The wrist and the hand, they're the worst of enemies, and the brain ties in with all of this too, as well as the heart.
The mind is the brain, always operating, always doing something. And then there's the wrist, the wrist is the heart;
the heart endures a lot of pain, as well as a wrist."
The wrist and the hand, they're the worst of enemies, and the brain ties in with all of this too, as well as the heart.
The mind is the brain, always operating, always doing something. And then there's the wrist, the wrist is the heart;
the heart endures a lot of pain, as well as a wrist."
Happy?
Me?
Take a walk through my mind, roll up my sleeves. Get to know me first. Then tell me how 'happy' I am.
Take a walk through my mind, roll up my sleeves. Get to know me first. Then tell me how 'happy' I am.
when she found his scars
she started crying so hard
his hands shook as he held her
as if her soul was tied
to his.
she kept saying i'm sorry
i am so so sorry as if she
had been the one to hold the balde
to his skin instead.
she could feel every line
like melting copper inside of her
and it killed him farther
~ r.i.d
❝... she wore long sleeves to hide the cuts and scars lining both of her wrists, a stupid sign of struggle that nobody cared to acknowledge.❞
How stuborn are the scars
When they wont fade away?
Or just a gentle reminder that
Now are better days.
~asking alexandria
If you are having a rough day/night, please read
on.
I know that you don't know me, and I know that I don't know you, but if you go now, that will never change. I will never find out what your favourite breed of cat is, and you will never laugh over my opinion on pimples that magically appear on hamster butts. Most importantly, I will never get to see your beautiful face. I know what you're thinking; This girl clearly doesn't know me, and is just trying to stop me from ending my life because she wants followers and attention. I've heard it all before. But that is so far from true. I am doing this because I love you, and like many other people, I can't let you do this. You are here to live a great and wonderful life, and trust me; you will. Once you get through this, you will see so many things that you can't even imagine right now. You will meet people who will love and take care of you in every way imaginable. Not to mention, there are so many small yet joyful things you will never experience. Buying your first house, meeting that special person, watching your child take their first steps, watching the sun set/rise from a poppy field, meeting your idol/s. The list goes on. You will never get to do any of those things. Ever. That's not enough? Think about this. Okay, and I need you to be honest with yourself now. Don't lie to yourself and say 'I've never been happy,' because I know that there has been at least one time in your life, one time, where you have felt happy. Now think of that time. Who were you with, what were you doing, when it was, where it was. Well, let me tell you know, if you end it all today/tonight, you will never get to do that again. Not to mention the people involved will never get to see you again, and trust me, they want to. There are literally so many people out there, right this very moment, thinking of you, wishing the best for you, wondering what you're doing, and if they knew that you were thinking/going to do what you're considering doing, they would feel sick to their stomach. Like I do, right now, thinking about how one person, yeah, you, might not get to live another day. That's why I need to tell you, that there is nobody as amazing as you. Nobody on this planet can do what you can do as well as you do it, not to mention, nobody can smile as well as you do. Speaking of your smile, it can make someone extremely happy. Seriously. But it won't ever be able to do that if you leave us all today/tonight. Okay, I know how you feel, you feel like one small action could make it all go away.That is not true. You are loved by so many people, and you may not be able to see, hear or feel them right now, but trust me, if they knew what you were thinking right now, they would do everything and anything they could to stop you. Take a few deep breaths, put whatever it is you're trying to hurt yourself with on the floor and avoid all eye contact with the object until you feel that you could pick it up (to destory it or put it away, of course) and not have the urge to harm yourself with it. Close your eyes, keep breathing. If you're badly injured, I need you to pick up the phone and call 000/911 right now. If you can't do that, get somebody. I know this may be very tough, but this is so important, and I promise you, it will get better eventually. Call 000/911 and keep taking those deep breaths, now explain to them what your situation is, and remember to stay calm. If you're not in a life threatening situation, there are still people you can call. There are so many lifelines out there, and trust me, the person on the other end of the line gets it. They aren't gonna judge you, or tell you what you're doing is disgraceful and wrong. They are going to help you through it. But if you don't feel like you have the strength to talk, face to face (well, over the phone) then just message me. I will check my messages every time I log on from now on, and I will also make sure to log on more often, because knowing that one persons life could depend on me, as unlikely as it may be, is the most important thing. Again, if you feel like self harming, take all the strength inside of you that may or may not have been hidden away all this time, and use it to put that object of great and terrible power on the ground, far away from you, and remember, don't look at it. Don't think about it, either, because if you think about it, it can only get worse from there. I love you. You are the most important thing to me and I will never let you get hurt if I have any part in it. In the worst case scenario, if you feel yourself losing conciousness, and still haven't called anyone, make sure you're on a soft surface, and try and get yourself out into the most open space you can find (open, safe place.) so somebody can find you. Try and calm yourself, find the nearest phone without using too much energy and call 000/911, making sure not to tire yourself out. Again, you are important, you are loved, you are beautiful.
I know that you don't know me, and I know that I don't know you, but if you go now, that will never change. I will never find out what your favourite breed of cat is, and you will never laugh over my opinion on pimples that magically appear on hamster butts. Most importantly, I will never get to see your beautiful face. I know what you're thinking; This girl clearly doesn't know me, and is just trying to stop me from ending my life because she wants followers and attention. I've heard it all before. But that is so far from true. I am doing this because I love you, and like many other people, I can't let you do this. You are here to live a great and wonderful life, and trust me; you will. Once you get through this, you will see so many things that you can't even imagine right now. You will meet people who will love and take care of you in every way imaginable. Not to mention, there are so many small yet joyful things you will never experience. Buying your first house, meeting that special person, watching your child take their first steps, watching the sun set/rise from a poppy field, meeting your idol/s. The list goes on. You will never get to do any of those things. Ever. That's not enough? Think about this. Okay, and I need you to be honest with yourself now. Don't lie to yourself and say 'I've never been happy,' because I know that there has been at least one time in your life, one time, where you have felt happy. Now think of that time. Who were you with, what were you doing, when it was, where it was. Well, let me tell you know, if you end it all today/tonight, you will never get to do that again. Not to mention the people involved will never get to see you again, and trust me, they want to. There are literally so many people out there, right this very moment, thinking of you, wishing the best for you, wondering what you're doing, and if they knew that you were thinking/going to do what you're considering doing, they would feel sick to their stomach. Like I do, right now, thinking about how one person, yeah, you, might not get to live another day. That's why I need to tell you, that there is nobody as amazing as you. Nobody on this planet can do what you can do as well as you do it, not to mention, nobody can smile as well as you do. Speaking of your smile, it can make someone extremely happy. Seriously. But it won't ever be able to do that if you leave us all today/tonight. Okay, I know how you feel, you feel like one small action could make it all go away.That is not true. You are loved by so many people, and you may not be able to see, hear or feel them right now, but trust me, if they knew what you were thinking right now, they would do everything and anything they could to stop you. Take a few deep breaths, put whatever it is you're trying to hurt yourself with on the floor and avoid all eye contact with the object until you feel that you could pick it up (to destory it or put it away, of course) and not have the urge to harm yourself with it. Close your eyes, keep breathing. If you're badly injured, I need you to pick up the phone and call 000/911 right now. If you can't do that, get somebody. I know this may be very tough, but this is so important, and I promise you, it will get better eventually. Call 000/911 and keep taking those deep breaths, now explain to them what your situation is, and remember to stay calm. If you're not in a life threatening situation, there are still people you can call. There are so many lifelines out there, and trust me, the person on the other end of the line gets it. They aren't gonna judge you, or tell you what you're doing is disgraceful and wrong. They are going to help you through it. But if you don't feel like you have the strength to talk, face to face (well, over the phone) then just message me. I will check my messages every time I log on from now on, and I will also make sure to log on more often, because knowing that one persons life could depend on me, as unlikely as it may be, is the most important thing. Again, if you feel like self harming, take all the strength inside of you that may or may not have been hidden away all this time, and use it to put that object of great and terrible power on the ground, far away from you, and remember, don't look at it. Don't think about it, either, because if you think about it, it can only get worse from there. I love you. You are the most important thing to me and I will never let you get hurt if I have any part in it. In the worst case scenario, if you feel yourself losing conciousness, and still haven't called anyone, make sure you're on a soft surface, and try and get yourself out into the most open space you can find (open, safe place.) so somebody can find you. Try and calm yourself, find the nearest phone without using too much energy and call 000/911, making sure not to tire yourself out. Again, you are important, you are loved, you are beautiful.
