So why do I feel constantly…lacking? Not interesting
enough, not clever enough, no way NEAR beautiful enough for you,
blah blah blah. It makes me angry. How can my mind possibly be so
conflicted? I also hate myself. It hurts, feels as though my
brain might tear in half. I love you. I want you. I want to be
yours. But I resent that. No one should want that after what you
put me through .I'm Scared of just how much I’m willing to
sacrifice to be with you, would I know when to stop? And most of
all I’m scared that if you ever saw this you’d leave me, again.
I can’t do it, when you leave me. I’m ashamed of that fact. But
when you leave me, I die.
Oh, you hate me?
Cool, I hate me too..
Cool, I hate me too..
Once
again
I am
crying
on my
bed.
I mess
up so
much.
I'm supposed to rely on pills now.
Ones that will prevent me from taking my own life.
Bullsh*t.
Ones that will prevent me from taking my own life.
Bullsh*t.
DON'T TALK TO ME IF YOU
-are homophobic
-think mental disabilities (ie: anxiety,
depression etc.) can be cured with "People have
it worse then you" or stuff along those lines
-enjoy watching people be upset/embarrassed
-romanticize self hate/harm
-hate on peoples opinions/beliefs (religion OR not)
-are homophobic
-think mental disabilities (ie: anxiety,
depression etc.) can be cured with "People have
it worse then you" or stuff along those lines
-enjoy watching people be upset/embarrassed
-romanticize self hate/harm
-hate on peoples opinions/beliefs (religion OR not)
the only problem in my life
is myself.
i find a sick fascination in
destroying
myself.
