this is gonna sound silly, but when
I was like mid-teen I made a deal with
god. now, like, I don't like talking about
religion because it isn't something that
everyone is on the same page about,
and I'd rather avoid the drama. plus, I
don't want anyone to be like "oh, she is
religious. she's dumb." or "oh, she isn't
religious. she's dumb." but I'm like very
concerned about this. anyway, my sister
was in the long distance relationship
with this guy, and he had an accident
and what have you. and the doctors at
the hospital said he died but they needed
a few days for some reason unknown.
anyway, my sister is bawling her eyes
out; heartbroken. so I was like "aye, god,
if you make it so that he is actually alive,
and that she is happy, you can make me
miserable for the rest of my life." anyway,
like 2-3 days later the doctors said that the
machine wasn't attached right and that he
ended up making it through. and ever
since I've been extremely miserable and
she hasn't so much as had a bad day.
even when her and the guy broke up and
such she didn't really have a miserable
day in her life. and yeah, idk, I feel like that
is my biggest regret in life tbh.
I repeated that to friends with different
religions, and I either get a "god wouldn't
do that" or "lol you are just paranoid, god
doesn't exist" and so on. I'm just sayin' I
was raised hella religious (like, not allowed
to watch Harry Potter religious) and I don't
know... (idek how to finish off this sentence.)