I told you I thought you liked me too much. That if we got
together it'd be hard on you. You said you could handle it. I
care about you a lot, but I still feel the same way. You have
blinders on when it comes to me. My friends and family think
it's sweet...but I feel bad. We'd never work out if we got
together now. I'd push you around too much. I would try my best
not to, but that's just how I am with you. I'm sorry. I
always apologise and make the slowest progress. But I'm trying.
I think it counts for something. You always say you can handle it.
I always get upset with you. What is it exactly that you can
handle? Me? I can't handle myself most of the time. You need to
take care of yourself too. You always say you'll take care of
me. It irks me. It's like something out of a drama. So what if
you've got the finances? I always tell you I have no interest
in spending your money. You used to get mad at that, you dummy.
What would you have done if I was the opposite? I'm sure you
wouldn't have liked me very much. Anyhow, back to that I'll
handle it line you love so much. You never want me to deal with my
own problems. I always joke if you want to be my boyfriend or my
"lil bitćh" lol. You're not fond of that name, but
it'll be all yours if you don't start being a little
selfish sometimes. Don't think about me too much. I'm not
as fragile as you think my dumdum. At the end of the day, I do love
you and I'm not going anywhere, so chill~