I have one good friend that I love and care about. When I
see her I feel my mood get 100 times better. She smiles at me I
smile at her. Our conversations are light hearted in person, we
delve a bit deeper in our text messages. I'm glad to have her.
I'm glad she could show me what it means to have a true,
wholesome friend. I have these other people I hang out with. My
mood when I'm with them isn't the best. I can't help
but feel like they don't respect me. Like I'm an easy
target, or pushover. I know I just need to be firm once and for
all, but I don't want to go that far. Because being firm in
their books would have to be something as clear as a loud shout.
More than just "Stop it, you're being too much." But
something short of a meltdown. And I don't want to go that far.
I've been distancing myself. Slowly easing myself out of our
decade of "friendship". They're not the same anymore,
I want to speed this process up, but I also want it to happen
naturally. Why is this so hard.
I know
What it's like to lose somebody you love
And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs
And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone
'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
What it's like to lose somebody you love
And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs
And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone
'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
"There is no life I know to compare with pure imagination. Living there, you'll be free if you truly wish to be."
- Willy Wonka
I LOVE IT WHEN
YOU SHARE EVERYTHING
WITH ME
Don't worry when I argue with you..
Worry when I stop,
because it means I've given up and there's nothing left to fight for.
My younger sister is my best friend, but she doesn't know. She
knows the most about me, I really like taking with her about
whatever comes to mind. I can be myself completely. We fight a lot
too about petty stuff, but it's never serious. She is my best
friend. I won't tell her, because she would worry about me.
"What about [insert friends name here]?" Would be the
first thing she says back. And I don't want her to worry. She
is a bit younger than me, I feel like I still have this proper
image to uphold when I'm with her. It would hurt my pride if
she knew how I really felt most of the time. She is my closest
friend. Maybe when we're older I can tell her. Maybe when
I'm older I will have made new friends. Maybe when my
depression goes away. Who knows.
" A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest men."
- Roald Dahl
