i was so sad and angry and tired and all i wanted was to be held
but there was nothing but silence and four walls staring at me
begrudgingly, saying "it shouldn't be like this, you
didn't plan it like this, did you?" and i wanted to crawl
into a hole but the floor was too cold so i stayed under the covers
and dreamed that i was somewhere warm where none of my problems
existed and it was like this that i finally learned how to survive
on my own.