I am completely terrified of death.
It's a fear that
keeps me up day and night, breaking me down to the point where I
just feel like I'm going to burst into tears. I don't
want to find out what happens after I die - I don't want to
find out that there's an afterlife, because I am sure I'm
going to Hell, and even if I don't, Heaven scares me too. The
mystery of it all makes me want to scream. But I know that even
if everyone somehow finds out what does happen after you die, I
would still be horrified. Just the thought of no longer existing,
but still, somehow, going on forever is just too much for me to
handle. Some people say that death is just like sleeping - except
you don't wake up. This also frightens me. I don't want
to sleep forever; I don't want an afterlife; I don't want
my life to repeat over and over again, but not remember my last
one.
I don't want to
die.
This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be that all you needed
If you let me try.
I'm terrified.
Terrified that everyone
bored with me
and soon they'll
dump me...
but Hel|
I might deserve it...
I don't know how to handle it...
