Best Triggerwarning Quotes This Month

 

I've made a lot of progress. I don't think about calories or scales or thigh gaps anymore. Ever. I've gained 35 pounds. You can't see my bones anymore. I don't spend every minute of free time staring at food in the supermarket, I don't shiver whenever anyone mentions eating McDonalds. My throat has healed up, my period has come back. And I never told anyone about any of it, so the reason I'm posting this is that you guys are the only people who I feel safe telling.

 

You think that everything would be
better without you, correct?

You’re utterly convinced that no
one needs you, right?

Right now, I want you to go to
your special hiding place and
get your knife, your blade,
your lighter; whatever tool
you’ve spent countless nights
battling, turning to for some
type of comfort. Now, I want you
to hold that tool. I want you to
feel the weight of it within
your palm. Feel the coldness
against your warm skin.

Now, picture this:
your mother, going to your room
to wake you up, only to find your
corpse on the ground, surrounded
by your own blood.

Can you hear it now?
The shrieks of terrors,
the uncontrollably sobbing.
Can you hear it now?

Then, your father comes running
to your room, finding your mother,
his wife, clutching your limp
body (his precious baby); screaming
to the heavens, desperately wishing
that she would just wake up from this nightmare.

He runs to her, pulling her away
from your body, shielding her
away from the horror. He bites his tongue,
holding back the sobs.

An hour later, they’ve collected
the body and your mother hasn’t
moved from the couch, blankly staring
into space; still waiting, hoping, praying
that she’ll wake up from this nightmare.

Your farther is in the other room,
sobbing silently; the same man
who you never once saw cry,
broken down.

Still believe your life means nothing?

Now picture your sibling, your sister, your brother,
getting called to the office; their teacher telling
them it’s an emergency. Your parents are there,
your mother is crying, your father is holding
her shaking body. Your sibling is confused, frightened.
They tell them the news, and the teacher
has to catch them before they fall
to the ground.

It was just last night you two
were bickering over what movie
to watch. It was just last night they
heard your laugh, saw your smile.
It was just last night.

When they tell your best friend,
they break down; you two were
supposed to see a movie that weekend.
You two were going to get pizza; now you’re gone,
and they’re left alone to fight their own demons.

It’s been one month.


Your door remains closed,
no one dares to go in there.
Your mother has shut down,
not knowing how to go on.
She cries herself to sleep every night.
Blaming herself for not telling you
how much she loves you.

Your father goes through the motions,
but some nights, he has a little too
much whiskey, hoping to numb the
pain that seems to have settled
on his chest.

Your sibling has gone silent,
turning to the knife to deal
with the pain that has taken
over them. Almost ever night,
they break down, punching
the ground, screaming your name
to the heavens.

Your best friend goes out every night,
drinking to forget the ache in their chest.
Just one more glass of vodka to forget,
even for a little while.

And where are you?
You’re six feet under the ground,
rotting away silently.
While everyone you loved,
who loved you, is continuing
their lives—
but there’s a void
in their a hearts, a space where
you once lived in.

Did you know that you’re
the reason your best friend
didn’t kill them self?

Did you know that you were
your sibling’s best friend?

Your parents’ pride and joy?

The light of everyone’s lives.

No, because you were blinded
by your sadness; you let
the darkness win.

Don’t let the darkness win.
Put the tool down, you’re
needed elsewhere.

                 
                                                         (DS)



 


March 28, 2012


Little girl, five years old.
Spends the days playing tag
and living in a world full of magic.
She has a light in her eyes,
full of hope and love.
Little girl, five years old.

Little girl, ten years old.
People called her fat today;
she didn’t say a word about it.
That night,
she went to bed without
food in her
stomach.
Little girl, ten years old.

Little girl, fifteen years old.
She covers her face in makeup,
she thinks that’s the
only way people will
ever call her beautiful.
Everyday, she looks in the mirror,
hating the person starting back at her.
Little girl, fifteen years old.

Little girl, seventeen years old.
Last night, she learned how to
play with fate.
Just a knick of the wrist
and she saw red;
the shiny new blade
became her
new best friend that night.
Little girl, seventeen years old.

Little girl, eighteen years old.
Saddest story ever told.
Once upon a time,
she lived in a world of magic;
now, tragedy has struck.
Tonight, she cut little deeper,
took a few more pills.
A note in her pocket that read:

little girl, eighteen years old;
little girl no more.
’                                                (DS)



 

Instead of trying to "fix"
the sad boys and girls
who have scars on their
wrists (or their hearts),
how about we try to fix
what drove them to
such sadness.
                 
                                  (DS)


 

Rarely do you 
see an adult walking
around with scars
littering their body;

now is it because
they were a happier
generation?

Or, maybe,
it's because
most of us
just don't
make it
that far.

                                  (DS)



 

I can't figure out what's
worse, the fact that I 
reached for the blade,
or that I was too sad 
to pick it up.

                 
                                  (DS)

 

When the metal pierced
my skin, staining my 
pale flesh red,
I thought I could 
control it.

Just this once,
I reasoned with
myself, justifying
my sins to my 
own demons.

However,
just this once
quickly turned into
just once more;
followed shortly by
only when I need it.

When the metal
pieced my flesh,
I thought I was
strong enough
to control it.

Four years,
countless scars,
countless nights,
spent crying alone,
playing with fate,
later


I realize I was wrong.

                                     (DS)




 

I am in an abusive
relationship.
They hurt me,
they call me names,
they tell me
I'm worthless,
and how much
no one will ever
love me.
Thing is,
I can't get away.
Because you
can't run away
from yourself.

                                         (DS)



 

I miss the coldness of the metal
that I pierced into me
oh-so sinfully.

and the warmth
of the crimson liquid
that flowed down
my wrist.

I miss your soothing words, 
medicine for my aching soul.

I miss feeling loved,
and dreaming about our future

together.

I miss many things.

But, most of all,
I miss who I used to be.

                                               (DS)

 

Why would you
do this to yourself
,
you asked.

Softly, you caressed
the tainted surface
of my wrist, covered
in little pink lines.

Why, why, why, you 
whispered brokenly.

The same reason
you breathe, 
to stay alive.


                                 (DS)




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