I don't know how to say this but
please here me out. Okay.. so lately, I've been
noticing my appearance more. I used I be like, "Oh
yeah, I know i'm not the prettiest person, but
whatever." And i still am like that... but., it's
weird. It's almost like at the same time I don't
care, I also can't accept what I look like anymore? For
example, let's say I'm talking to someone
attractive. What I'll do is I'll imagine that I
look like the person that I'm talking to.. it makes me
feel better about myself but isn't it bad that I'm
picturing myself as someone that I'm not? Isn't
this weird? What do I do? WHY am I doing
this?