I can get drunk by your laughter, and get high from your touch. But I'm worried I'll overdose on feelings, and get hurt from loving you too much.
i feel so alone. like i have no one. im so stressed with exams that
i have subconciously been pushing my friends and family away.
I cry myself to sleep everynight. i barely talk anymore because it
feels as though everything i say is wrong or it offends someone. i
am getting threatened to get my name carved in cement with my teeth
by my exs ex because she thinks im the biggest who/re in town. shes
the one who lost her vir/ginity at 14 to a 27 year old. IM
SCARED FOR MY SAFETY. i dont know what to do anymore. i
try talk to what friends i have left and they have no time for me.
Im losing everyone and if any of you knew me, you would know im a
social person. my life has gone in a downhill spiral ever since May
when jeremy broke up with me because he cheated on me. I cant
handle life anymore. i gave tried thinking of ways to stop the hurt
without hurting my family but everything i have thought of hurts
them
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So in Friday x and I find talk at all and it kinda sucked.
Yesterday I went to a Latin convention thing and it was stupid. I watched breaking dawn at night and I couldn't help but think of x. While I was txting one og ng my friends she told me that x said he was worried about me not eating at lunch and that it could be the begining of anorexia because I'm already thin. I wish he would talk to me about it but I guess he will eventually. We are kinda texting but I think he is at mass so he hasn't texted me back in a while but are conversation was really boring so if he left I wouldn't be surprised cuz I almost did. I have so much homework but Ive been working on it all day and can't think so I'll be up till like 3 doing it
So in Friday x and I find talk at all and it kinda sucked.
Yesterday I went to a Latin convention thing and it was stupid. I watched breaking dawn at night and I couldn't help but think of x. While I was txting one og ng my friends she told me that x said he was worried about me not eating at lunch and that it could be the begining of anorexia because I'm already thin. I wish he would talk to me about it but I guess he will eventually. We are kinda texting but I think he is at mass so he hasn't texted me back in a while but are conversation was really boring so if he left I wouldn't be surprised cuz I almost did. I have so much homework but Ive been working on it all day and can't think so I'll be up till like 3 doing it
So I know its a stupid thing to worry about. Im only 17.
But next week I get tests run to see if Im able to have kids.
And the thing is..I really want kids, like..badly.
Ive had my kids name picked out sense I was 12.
Avia Raine for a girl and Alexander (Zander) Ryder for a boy.
If I find out that I cant have kids..I will be crushed to say the least.
But next week I get tests run to see if Im able to have kids.
And the thing is..I really want kids, like..badly.
Ive had my kids name picked out sense I was 12.
Avia Raine for a girl and Alexander (Zander) Ryder for a boy.
If I find out that I cant have kids..I will be crushed to say the least.
My brother just went to town. I'm seriously thinking what the
hell he is gonna do...
i know i joke about it, but i am legit seriously worried
i’m going to be alone my whole life.
"and when she thought
everything was okay,
she woke up and reality set in."
~g.m
she woke up and reality set in."
~g.m
