My mom: She
takes 3 AP classes and all you take is 2
My mom: She made the tennis team
and all you do is track and field
My mom: She
plays the piano and the violin and you only play the
violin
My mom: She dances and she sings
and all you can do is dance
My mom: She's
a year ahead in math and you're only in
honors
My mom: She's so beautiful
and dresses classy while you are ugly
My mom: She
has so many friends and is so social while you have 2 friends
left
My mom: She's so hardworking
and headstong and all you do is cry
My mom: She
has such a beautiful body and eats properly and you're just
fat
My mom: She's good enough
for me while you're not and NEVER will
be.
I’m that girl that's
always... Smiling. Under that,
there's a frown.
I have no one to talk to.
I have friends, but I don't feel like they're
real.
My parents don't even like me that much.
They get annoyed when I cry.
Am I really that
worthless?
Words cannot even define how much I am so
so so tired of being everyone's second fúcking
choice. No one ever picks me first for anything. I always have
to be the last resort, always. I don't want to be just the
person you choose when the one you really want isn't
available. If I'm always going to be that, then just
don't choose me at all. I don't want to be
someone's fúcking backup plan, i want to be worth
it. I want to be someone's best friend, I want to be the
only girl a guy wants, I want to feel like I mean something
more than just annoying everyone around me with my existence.
I am entirely legitimately
so sick of this shít. I want
out.