I really need to get this off my chest.. so I just moved to a new
place, and I met this guy. I thought he was really really sweet,
and cute, and funny. We made out. We held hands. And my parents
were gone for 7 hours.. he came to my house, and we did it. I had
known him for 4 days. And I had s/ex with him. I'm in love with
someone else... I'm in love with my best guy friend.. and he lives
hours and hours away in another state.. and he has a girlfriend. He
lost his virginity to her, and I'm going crazy.. I love him so
much. And he's still there for me even after what I've done. The
guy that I had s/ex with told me he just wants to be friends with
benefits. You have no idea how much that hurts.. to just be
somebody's s/ex toy. To feel like a possession. You don't feel like
you belong to yourself anymore. I don't know what to do..