THIS IS GOING TO
BE PRETTY PERSONAL-SORRY
This is somewhat an "about me" post
I've been dealing with self
harm since eighth grade-I'm a senior now. Diagnosed with
major depression disorder and severe social anxiety in December
2011 and put on medication. Hospitalized for telling my mom and
therapist I was afraid I would kill myself January 10th, 2012 for
a week. In the hospital again January 29th, 2012 to get staples
in my arm. Hospitalized again March 27th, 2012 for bringing a
razor to school and cutting too deep. Had to get my arm glued at
the doctor; then in a psychiatric hospital for 2 weeks. Cut too
deep again July 17th, 2012 but I was too afraid to tell my
parents so I superglued it shut.The last time I self harmed was
October 16th, 2012. This has been the hardest time of my life. I
think about hurting myself every day, even if I'm not sad.
People think hurting yourself is dumb and they don't
understand it. But you become addicted to the pain. I miss it a
lot. I'm still on medication, and I actually feel kinda fine.
But I always want to hurt myself. After all this time. I feel
like the urges will never go away and I know I'll eventually
give in again. Thanks if you read this. I just needed to type
this to remind myself what I've been through and how strong I
really am.