I know no
one will read this, I just need to vent, get it out, feel like
someone's listening.
Alright, so,
I'm at my Aunt and Uncle's house with my Dad, sister, and
two cousins. My cousin and I had gone outside to see what
everyone was up to and my Uncle was out there with my one cousin,
sister, and his girlfriend, my aunt. So I came out and saw my one
cousin was wearing a bikini and jokingly said
"that's very revealing" IN A JOKINGLY WAY. So
my aunt goes and says "Don't listen to her, she's
just jealous of you since she can't wear it." I
didn't even know what to say, it felt like I was slapped in
the face. Yes, I know I'm not as skinny as her and I'm a
bit overweight, but still, when you said it like that it made me
feel like a whale. So, yes, I am jealous, but you
didn't have to go and say it like that, make me feel all
awkward and fat. It's not my fault that I'm not skinny
like her, well, partially it is, but whatever. She doesn't
know that I've tried dieting before and how hard it is, and
how you don't want to feel awkward around your friends
because you won't eat any junk food so you have to sit there
and watch them eat it. She doesn't realized how self concious
society makes me feel. So now, I feel like crap, like I need to
stop eating because I'm not skinny enough, like I don't
have the right body.
Like I said,
you don't have to read this, it's just a vent. But if you
do read this, I love you.