FeelingInside

who are you to tell me what my future will be like.
Don't say things to put me down.
People say ignore what they say but it affects me.
I can't just block every mean thing that someone says.
Because I dont beliven myself.
The way people think I do.

Each day I tell myself that I will get better and move on.
And I will just no right now.Not for a little while.
I still have some things to fix.
I they can be fixed.
It seems like I am the only one that's wants better.
It seems that I know that it can get better.
But before school starts back I will come back as a new me.
The one who knows what I want.
Who makes better choices.
Not saying that I will be perfect.
Not saying that I will make mistakes.
I just want myself to be better.

I think one of the worst feelings is finding out that you didnt mean as much to someone,
you thought you did.And I just feel dumb because I let myself let you do this to me.

What do people today not understand about me.
I don't need anyone there for me.
I've been alone this long and all a sudden ..
you care.

I  am really sick of being that side friend.
I am sick of letting people go out of my life so often.
I am sick of not knowing who my real friends are.
I am sick fighting with you.
I am sick of my feelings getting hurt.
I am sick of crying.
I am sick of not being important to you,
I am sick of being so confused of what's going to happen next.
I am so sick that I have grown weak.
And I can't be strong anymore.

You still have hope;
Maybe it's buried in side you.
 

Im sick of being that side friend.
That everybody goes to when they need something or
when there is no one else around.
~♥

I  will still love you even if you ,
forget the memories.
~♥

Don't stress yourself over things you can't change.