Everything sucks!
Everyday just keeps getting worse and worse. I try to just ignore
it all and keep going, all my life thats what people told me to
do. Just smile. Well you know what, I tried that. But guess what,
it didn't make anything better. I lost all my friends, nobody
cares about me, I've changed, I don't feel anything, and im still
misurable. This morning I woke up every 15 minutes for 3 hours.
Then I had to get up and get on the bus where nobody even looks
my way anymore. I look like sh*t everyday because I am to tired
in the morning to wake up earlier to make myself look good. Then
I get to school (where my rapist goes btw) and its the lastplace
I want to be. I go into science and my boyfriend is told he can't
sit next to me anymore. Then I go to the next period were nobody
gives a sh*t about me. I have nobody to talk to and the class
SUCKS! Next class is math and the teacher intimidates me and i am
scared of him so i dont know anything in that class and am
failing. Next class is the guided study class, as if i wasnt
different enough with haveing to walk a certain pathway everyday
to avoid my sexual assualter, I am now put in a room with 6 kids
because we all need help in school. Thing is, I dont need to be
there and the teacher is effin annoying! Last class is art, its
the only class i kinda like but i am falling behind so i had to
take my project home. I am just sitting there on the bus and
someone decides to seat jump, sit on my project, not apologize,
and now i have to fix half of it. I get home with a headache,
want to go to sleep and my sister and little brothers start
screaming, thanks. and last but not least i go to take a shower
and someone broke it. now we can only take baths and if i get
water in my ears I get ear infections. MY DAY WAS F*CKING
FANTASTIC!
.... okay done with my vent.