Jen07676

I know what today is... I went to your contact and stared at it for a moment. I opened a blank message with my finger tips on the keyboard, but so much went down between us. I just wanted to send this long message saying happy birthday and apologzing about everything that happened, but then i realized... we haven't talked in 4 months. Why should you care anymore? Why should I care anymore? So instead, I went to your contact and erased your number. The only way you can move forward... is if you leave the past behind. Well, Happy Birthday.

Last Friday I went to the movies with HIM & my best friend. Friday was the day before my birthday, so he brought a present along. We watch the whole movie; we laugh, we giggle, and finally we get to the end credits. By now everyone's gone from the theatre. He agreed to letting me open my present. I pulled out a phonecase that had 2 pictures of us on it. In the middle it read "Happy Birthday Je sa sa! ❤" (his nickname for me) It was adorable, and i was freaking out when i slipped it on the back of my phone. Then he let me open the card, i read it, it was sweet and finally i got to the end it said "I have a few questions for you" I made my friend leave because it was a special moment... I turned to him and he said "Ok first... will you escourt me on stage for mr.THS?" (its a school thing) Smiling i said "sure" Then he said "Ok second, i know these past couples times ive screwed up so.... *he gets down on one knee* Jenessa, will you make me the happiest man alive and be my girl friend!" With the biggest smile on my face i quickly replied "Yes!!!!" then i hugged him... I'm so happy❤
5/3/13

I know he'll probably never see this, but it just needed to be said: I'm sorry. I screwed up big time, and now you'll hate me forever. You were in love with me for 2 years, and I thought maybe I could convince myself to love you back, i tried, but that's not how love works unfortunately. Now you dont love me, now you hate me. But you know what? Good for you, you should hate me, you should he mad at me because i acted like a b*tch and completely screwed you over. If i could go back one time in my life, it would be to fix what happened between us, it was probably a good situation for you because now you're finally over me, now you can find someone better who deserves you, now you can finally be happy, and that's what I wanted for you all along. If you hating me and never talking to me makes you happy... then hate me and don't talk to me. Now you can be free, but I just want to say i'm going to miss our friendship. I'm going to miss feeling your cute curly hair, i'm going to miss making you smile & laugh. I'm going to look back on the time we went to sky zone & the movies. I'm going to look back on the first time I saw you in Mr. Carter's room and I waved to you like a nutcase. I will miss you. Even though you hate me, I will always care about you, and always wish the best for you. Please remember me, the girl who once made you smile, but most importantly remember me as the girl who still cares, but completely messed up. I'm sorry R.I.P to our friendship... have a good life, I hope it turns out to be everything you want it to be.

I feel like slowly & slowly i'm changing
Slowly i am starting to care what people think about me
Slowly i am becoming quieter & quieter
Slowly i am becoming nervous all the time
Slowly i am living the life i never wanted

How am i suppose to sleep when all i can hear is the sound of my sisters cries echoing throughout my house?

~All that I'm after is a life full of laughter, as long as I'm laughing with you.~

Guys I need help. I need to know if i did the right thing....
So there's this kid who has been in love with me for the longest time. Finally i thought i liked him and i told him that. 2 days ago He grabbed my hands &&& said I love you and kissed me then hugged me then kissed me again then we walked and when he said bye he hugged me & then kissed me on the cheek. However, after we kissed i felt nothing. After all that it was nothing, like no emotion. I knew right there i didn't like him. I talked it over with my friend Parker, &&& he said you should tell him that you felt nothing when you kissed. You should tell him that you dont want to be in a fake relationship, you dont want to lead him on into a relationship if you dont like him, because that will hurt him more. I did what Parker said i explained to him everything &&& now he hates me... I understand he's hurt i totally do! But did i do the right thing? I thought i chose the best for him... HELP!

Do you ever wish you could read someone's mind....?

First Kiss ✌

That moment when you have no choice, but to end things before they get even worse.