Status: start new.
Joined: July 22, 2011
Last Seen: 7 months
user id: 198065
Gender: F

Quotes by akatsukiiprincess*

It's at this point that I'm starting to understand what people mean when they say a tattoo lasts forever.
When I look at my body and see only what used to be but is no longer there. 
When I am constantly reminded of some of my hardest moments.
At the time I thought they would be reminders of what I overcame- but today they feel like reminders of pain.
They feel like I'm telling the world of a moment I feel stuck in, they feel like a scream for help that was ignored. They feel like a part of my life that I can't stop carrying.

I feel trapped by who I was in that moment.

Here I am, checking in, again.
I dont know what to say but I know I just want someone to talk to. I don't know how to be alone, when its just me and my thoughts I feel so empty. I feel so defeated and so lost. I don't know how to live inside my own head all the time, theres no way. I cant sit in silence, its absolute agony. I just need someone I can talk to someone I can turn to, someone I can hold onto. Each day I get further and further away and each time its harder and harder to come back. I really just need something, anything to hold onto.

So I havent been on here in 5 years I like my profile said? Its wild, reading all the things I used to write that I can only barely remember. I think that was the point of me doing it back the, was to have something I could look back on and know my old self.. but the thing is that I thought I would be looking back as a better person and the truth is, I'm not. 
I thought that I would grow out of it but I didn't. Here I am, an adult reading things that everyone told me was just teenage angst and thinking to myself, how did I even get this far? Its no wonder Im strugling so hard now, I've been struggling with this my whole fckng life
I like this though, a whole other world I can escape to. I liked going back and reading old things from myself and I want to keep it.
So from here on out I'm coming back to this. This is my secret escape, my secret way of getting everything out. 
If t
heres anyone out there that feels anything similar to anything I ever wrote, reach out and we can figure it out together.
Much love
I want to go to sleep but I'm scared of tomorrow :/
&The worst part of it is that you don't even know your hurting me...
I love you more than you will ever know ()
When I think about you, I can't help but smile... But do you even think about me at all ??
Here we go, another sleepless night.. You'd think after all this time I'd finally run out of things to dwell over but no, life could never be so simple.
warped tour 2013 was amazing, I finally got to meet & see Bring Me The Horizon ❤✌
I love everything about you, even after all this time & all we've been through I still don't think you understand just how much you mean to me.. Don't leave me okay ? ❤