Dudu*

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Joined: June 1, 2013
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user id: 361860
Gender: F

This turned into my diary somehow.


i have a black dog. 


I'm still learning new things about myself.  I'm sorry for the spam.

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Quotes by Dudu*

you wanted to be rory, but i'm afraid it's me.
i'm not prepared to wait thousands of years for you to realise it's me.
how do i shake this feeling, doctor?
i still pray for you.
i still have hope for you.
even if i shouldn't,
i still want you.
one day i won't care this much.
one day it won't hurt this much.
i still wish so badly that you would understand me. that you would know me.
i wish you would check in with me genuinely.
there's so much that has happened to me.
i wish you would show me your love in the ways that i wanted you to.
i wish you told me how perfect i was already.
i wish you never compared me to others.
i wish you would just know me and accept me as i am.

i don't think you'll ever know to what extent you've hurt me.
i just feel like you should know me by now.
know me beyond the foods i like to eat.
i wish you knew my other preferences.
i wish you knew and accepted. but you just can't ever seem to accept me.
i didn't ask to be this way. i am just the way i am.

there are things i wish i could change so you could accept me but i just can't.
i don't know which parts were nature and which were nuture.
all i know is that you have never accepted all of me.
i don't even know how you see me.
must be some weird mixture of ungrateful and detached. you must think i've shut everything off completely just to spite you.
but i am not like that.
i wish you knew me.

i think if you knew me mum, then you would truly love me.
chase two girls
lose 'the one'
you always come back to me
you make my heart
shake
bend
+ break

but i can't turn away and it's driving me wild.
you're driving me wild.
 
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i'm just going to follow my heart
what am i to you?
does this even matter?
it won't work out unless you change.
this sucks!
you're not
really good
at comforting me,
you know?

i think i'll look back and laugh
i just want to know the reason
i'll probably look back and laugh
i just want to know the reason
surely i'll look back and laugh

will the reason be because
it worked out
well or differently?

i want to know the reason.