Dudu*

Who you holding out for, my darling?
Oh... darling!
'Best not be a waste of your sweet t-i-me!
Little d-a-rling.

i tried to replace you, but you're still my muse.
when he texted me back
and i felt my stomach twist,
i knew it then for sure it's only you that i want.
with your flaws and all.
for the longest time, i've been yours.
like a duck to water, you'll find your way to me.
i'll let you be mine when you're ready to be.

even after all this
i still have this gut feeling
this gut feeling that has never let me down.
i just know we'll make it.
i don't know the "how", 
we'll just leave that up to God.

i think it's really time that i let you go.
it's childish but i'm going to do this the only way i know.
if i focus on the good, i'll want to hang onto you forever.
so i must put the magnifying glass on the areas that you falter.

my new match will be wiser and taller.
he won't have girl friends that ask him out to dinner.
he'll be a true man of God and my faithful life partner.
he'll always know what to say.
he'll show he loves me everyday.
he'll always make it clear to me that i am for him and he is for me.

we'll be exactly what we need to be.
he'll be someone i can sink into and someone who can lift me up.
he'll take me out when i'm feeling blue.
he'll know me better than i do.

 there's really no point in me holding onto you, i know.
we'll never become the people i want us to be, i know.
i'm burning myself everytime i text you back...i know.
i know but i still have hope.
that when you dream, it's of me.
that when things fall into place, you'll search for me.
that when you finally start thinking for yourself,
you realise it's always been me.
 

i gave you more assurance than i needed to
i helped you out far more than i needed to
i talked to you for far longer than i needed to
i pined for you for longer than i admit to
i waited for you for longer than i wanted to

i bet you question why i did that for you
i ask myself why i did that too

perhaps it's because i always see myself in you
perhaps i gave you the love i needed too
and someday i'll get it in return, in two-fold, too

closure would look like a ring on my finger.
closure would feel like your arms around me.
closure would be waking up next to you,
everyday for the rest of my life. 

i like the way you love, i want that for myself.
don't you get that i know you...perhaps better than anyone else?
don't you know that a love like mine comes only once in a lifetime?
i can't shake feeling like i'm written for you and you for me.
i keep thinking i'm your missing piece.

i've been living off the crumbs of your love
and i'm starving now.