Thatgirl16

That Girl

            Today honestly I felt like i was going to cry:( I am tired of all the critisism i recieve daily, by my own classmates.. I feel embarrassed, humiliated, and just plain stupid for letting them treat me that way.. It's hard to tell what he wants.. Like he talks one day like we're friends and the next he'll talk to me like i'm stupid and ignore me.. I don't understand guys anymore! I give up on him completly recently and now that i'm living my life alone.. He comes back, trying to have me as his rebound.. Well that's too bad cause i've been his rebound for too long! Recently i've noticed this guy at my speech meets :) The thing is, i'm way too shy to even talk to him, add him on facebook or anything.. And i have a friend who talks to his friends and she kinda told me alittle more about him. He's also very shy, but nice:) Which is great! But there's a catch, i feel like my heart races when i was near him the times i was near him.. Oh gosh!! It feels so different to feel that again! Hopefully this becomes more than a crush and you know, something great perhaps?If only i wasn't so shy! :/
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Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 11 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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            Ohh my gosh!! It feels like forever since the last time i've written on here.. I'm sorry, at this moment i am somewhat living in a depressing moment.. hard to decide things, friends are the only thing that make me smile every once in a while... Sadly enough there is some bad but of course good out of everything right? So since the last i've written, i've decided to forget HIM completly and surprisingly it's been pretty good.. the only thing is that he's confusing.. Today, out of nowhere he told me he hated me.. I'm pretty sure he doesn't really hate me.. cause well, what have i done to him right?  Nothing absolutley nothing, more likely what hasn't he done to me. Other than ruin my emotions and hurt me millions of times over and over again, again i know its my own fault too. I don't mean it though, it just comes w/ my mind lying to me, making me think that he's the only guy out there that i see.. Totally not true. And oh have i realized that too. So far i'm sad that i'm never going to find that someone.. He told me that since he's talking to another girl from another school and baisically everyone knows it he was telling me and a friend, that i was just jelous because the girl he's talking to is prettier than me.. what a do/che of a move right? Well let's just put it in a nicely way that i don't fancy him no more.. I don't find him the same way i did or will i ever. I've learned my lesson and i've fallen hard for him way too long.. I'm glad that i've seen the way out of this nightmare. Hurting my emotions over and over again isn't a good way to live, am i right? I'm glad that i can actually go to school barely look at him, talk to him, or even care what he has to say. I can somewhat move on from this terror that i've lived for so long.. And it's about time i put my foot down and listen to my concience (: If you read this that makes me happy to know that i'm not the only one who at least read this and thought i'm crazy.. for the same guy.
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 11 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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              So since i've been giving up on the do/che that never gave me a chance, after i waited and waited and actually am finally forgeting him.It's been pretty good! I've gone out with my friends, shopping, planning things out and it feels great.. Like i finally got out of a really bad hair day! ahah The only thing i wish is that it doesn't have to be this way forever.. i mean like i don't hate being single but come on' i don't want to be single forever.. I do want someone.. That treats me like he never did. Like i deserve. But for now i think i like being the single pringle that i am right now :) For once in my life i'm actually enjoying my single life.. ! I mean- that's great ! It's felt like this whole time i've been trapped liking the same person over and over again.. KNOWING thta he doesn't like me back.. I realize no i wasted my time and that i didn't deserve to be treated the way i was by him.. So hopefully my life keeps going this way and i can keep this up! (:
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 12 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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              Recently its been going good since i've stopped thinking about him.. I've been finally moving on, i've felt like i had some sort of closure w/out him.. ya know?? Even though he STILL wants to talk to me it seems like i just tune him out and in matter of minutes its all over and i take a breather looking back that just a few minutes ago i just survived without falling again. Every day i hear different stories about the girl he likes/dislikes, whatever.. i honestly don't care anymore. That is how proud i am about myself.. l can go with my friends and laugh around and at the end of the day i wouldn't go on thinking about what he's doing or anything.. I've put up with him way too much and its about time to put my foot down and realize i deserve much better.. He's just not worth it..
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 12 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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              He- well is history to me now.. even thought i know that it's hard to forget someone you see everyday.. Trust me its hard. I am going to forget this jerk terk and clear my mind of him. I deserve and what i want is just not pay attention to any guys at this moment. Other than my beautiful 5 boys!! ;) *One Direction* But anyways i think that its about time that i take this strong desicion to actually put my foot down and move on. It's like "B/tch please, he's not into you." Like a slap in the face. Baisically its a wake up call for me to finally get him out of what has been going on for too long. When obviously nothing is goingn to happen! I understand that i was stupid and didn't know what i was getting myself into back then.. but its been almost 3 years where i have been wasting my time with a guy that doesn't even pay attention to me. Whats the point right? Well i don't want to get hurt anymore. can you blame me? Of course not! Of course i want a relationship. i don't want to feel lonly here and i bet nobody wants to.. But i have been barking up the wrong tree for too long.. I hope its not as hard as it sounds...
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 12 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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              He keeps talking to me and i just want to forget him.. He dislikes One Direction.. he thinks the wear capries all the time.. Even if they did there's nothing wrong with that. 
Now it gets personal.. or should i say.. pus/ynal ;) If you know where that is from you are a true directioner.. :D I have nothing else to talk about so just go on my profile and click that cute little follow button it would just make my day!! :D
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home is out!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 10 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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             I think i made the right choice. I do deserve better and he's just not worth it.. Also what i personally hate about my 'friends' is that they like to make me feel lonlier than what i already am. I have a friend who is much older than me but i'm still there for her even though her decesions make me want to smack her. For example, she has a boyfriend who is kind of an as/hole.. He's broken up with her for the same reason every time.. And then she recently got back together with him and she texts me how she is in love with him and he's changed.. I hate it when people try to tell me things like that about their relationships.. I don't care.. I already have a potato syndrom.. Goodness! And i have another friend who met a guy online and talks and skypes and i just feel lonly not having anyone.. Like i listen to their problems and i give them advice but when it comes to me no one wants to be my therapist.. FML..  
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home is out!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 10 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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             Someone please tell me if i did the right thing;
Today there is a school activity that wasn't obligatory to go to.. ( i realize i didn't say that right<<)
Anyways, he was going to be there and his crush/friend whatever was too. But the thing is i made a promise to myself that i wasn't going to talk to him, look at him, or anything just baisically ignore him since i'm tired of being pushed around and getting my heart broken by a guy that barely cares about me.. 
So i didn't go... Cause it's like some kind of addiction that i wanted to go, my brain telling me it was nessary to go. But today it snowed and my parents were worried to have me drive there since its not even a year that i've started driving and don't have that much experience for weather like that.. But my parents didn't say no. 
So my point is, was it a good thing that i didn't go? Or should have i gone anyways.. this is probably the first time i'll ever ask for you're guy's oppinion cause well i just don't want to recieve hate. 
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home is out!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D 
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 10 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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             So I'm honestly trying. But he keeps talking to me! I just want him to ignore me and erase me from his memory and never talk to me ever.. and maybe, just maybe i could be at peace. I deserve a guy that likes me for me.. That doesn't care what other people think and manned up and talked to me. That is what i truly deserve! He doesn't live up to my needs so whats the point of tryng.. But sometimes i can't help it either! People want what they can't have... Its true. I'm so confused when it comes to him..  cause theres moments when i think he likes me and other days where all he talks about is the girl that is really likes him.. and he likes her. They text and talk and flirt and everything.. she has everything, looks, money, popularity, more friends, for gosh sakes i don't even have a boy's number! I have braces, and am not the richest person.. And everyone is just peaches about their relationship/friendship.. I don't know. i give up! I'm going to keep trying and see where this takes me later.. 
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home is out!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D So i'm going to change the format since i'm getting bored with this one :)
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 10 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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             Why do you wish to speak to me at all if you don't like me? I've been hung up on him for a long time now and i don't know how much longer my heart can take it getting played. And then later to find out that you like someone else? I'm tired and i can't take it anymore! Today during 1st period he told me that i couldn't be in his group because there was only suppose to be 3 in a group and my friend was sick. Well, i got a bit mad since noone wanted me to be in their group for the activity and i just sat there like it was a study hall, i can't remember if he said something else so i told him not to talk to me.. I was a bit mad that i wasn't going to be able to finish the activity or to even start it because he didn't want me in it.. so i ignored him the whole time and i just couldn't stand him at the moment.. When Algebra rolled in i sit infront of him so he passes by and looks at my paper, my first instinct was that he was copying.. then he told me i was suppose to do a graph for one of the problems.. i just thought. " Since when does he even care..?" i told him " I know, thats why i left space." he didn't hear me the first time since we're not suppose to talk and he said "oh now i see." and gets me a piece of graph paper.. like we were some kind of friends.I am so confused that this moment since i just want to forget him completley.. i deserve much better.. right? :(  
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 <3 Eek Finally One Direction's Take Me Home is out!! Buy a copy! Have a carrot, then have a good day! :D So i'm going to change the format since i'm getting bored with this one :)
Just letting you know !! Making this blog actually helps me express myself so thank you to everyone who reads it, and to the people who've tooken the time to favorite this reality blog that i call my life..
I'm so happy for all my amazing and loving, 10 followers!! :D Thank you so much you've made me think im not alone out there and someone actually listens to what I have to say. 
*Well obviously i have more to tell you, its my life. And it hasn't ended yet. If you read this! (: Thank you! love you! (: It means so much to me! I'll post more tomorrow! ( if i can!)
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