Crazy girl*

SO, I have an update! Chris and I were talking like all day on Saturday and it seemed like he wanted to see me! So he and I were supposed to meet up at a bar that night. I didn't go by myself of course, Ellie (my roommate) and her friend came as well. So he ended up not showing up, due to circumstances that were out of his control essentially, but he kept lying to me about how he was on his way to the bar! Ellie and I were at the front of the bar all night looking for him and at one point he said that he was there and then he wasn't, and it was just kind of frustrating. I didn't understand why he just didn't tell me that his plans changed and felt like he had to lie to me? Thanks Zoya! It's week two and I am taking everything day by day but of course I am constantly stressed already. How was your birthday? 25 seems like it's an exciting age. That's so nice that you are taking a break from work. Is that your birthday present to yourself? That's okay girl, I've been so busy but I am trying to make time to reply to you! My life has been so crazy recently as you know so I try to update you when I can. xD
But yeah, to conclude, school, social, and romantic life has all been so busy!

Klauss kind of saw it coming, but it still didn't make it easier for either of us! I talked to him a couple days ago wishing him luck with classes, and I wanted to make sure he was okay, but that was it. It's okay, it's too soon for me to try and do anything with Chris anyway! I have no idea if he would even want to hook up with me, but I guess I really should just ask him to find out when I'm ready. Yeah, it was kind of unexpected, but it's been chill so far, I don't mind being just friends with Joe. We actually have a Snapchat streak now! Yeah, classes started on Tuesday! My professors all seem fine and the classes are all interesting, I just know it's going to be so much work. Oh my gosh wow, 25. Are you excited?! :D
What else is new since the last time we talked, I have been so busy with friends and classes I haven't had a chance to log on!

I can imagine it cant have been easy as breakups are never easy! Thats good, at least you still checked up on him, shows you still care. Well when you're ready to move forward then I suppose you can ask Chris. Ooh look at you having a streak with Joe but hey its nice that you guys are on good terms. Glad to hear your classes are going well. good luck with all the work! Umm I kinda am excited to be 25 but at the same time I'm not. Its my day last day of being 24 and what a year it has been. Well there's not much update with me. Work has been busy but I'm taking time off from today until 3rd February as I need a break. Other than that theres not much going on in my life. Sorry for the late reply, this week has been busy.

No problem. *many hugs* It's okay. I've been alright, but I just don't think it's really sunk in yet, you know? We used to talk every single day almost since we were fifteen, and hang out every week or so, so not talking to him or being around him is going to be rough. But it's been a week and I really only get sad once I start thinking about it a lot! It wasn't mutual. I was the one who wanted the breakup, he didn't! But he understood my reasoning, even if it really upset him. It was a really hard conversation and we were both sobbing. Yeah, talking to Chris really didn't go anywhere! But you remember Joe right, he very suspiciously popped back up in my life! He readded me on Snapchat last weekend and we've been talking here and there, but I really don't want anything with him. I said we could be friends, since we were best friends at one point, but that's it. But yeah, there's been a lot of ex stuff going on! Ugh, I know exactly what you're talking about! Working with all women can be so annoying, that's how it was at the daycare! Everyone talks about each other, it's not good. I totally understand where you're coming from. The children made my job worth going in for, I really only liked two of the teachers I worked with, everyone else there was kind of standoffish! Like why would you act like that when you work with children, you're supposed to be nice. Anyways, rant over. xD
Oh by the way, I go back to school on Sunday and classes start on Tuesday, I'm taking six this semester so I'm going to be busy!

*hugs* Its still raw so it will take time for it to sink in and for you to both heal. Oh no, that must be really hard especially if you guys were both talking to each other all the time:/ I can imagine Klauss would have taken a bit hard seeing as he probably didnt see it coming:/ But if the connection isnt there or it isnt the same then sometimes its best to move on. Oh that sucks it didnt go anywhere with Chris. Oh wow Joe popped up again, havent heard you talk about him for a while. Thats good, at least you've set boundaries and dont want anything else with him. Its okay, things will get better girl...right now everything is raw and emotions may be everywhere but its completely normal. Oh gosh tell me about it. Working with loads of women is beyond frustrating. Cant stand the constant gossiping etc. I completely agree with you on that one. Oh wow on Sunday! Damn 6 classes, that is a lot but hey it'll keep you busy which is a good thing I suppose. I'm going to be 25 next Saturday, cant believe it!

Oh my gosh I am so sorry. I never got the notification that you replied last week. Good luck with the training coming up. What?! Oh my goodness, that should be against the law to work that long on a holiday! You're very welcome! *hugs* Aw thank you so much! Unfortunately 2020 has not been great to me. I don't know if you caught this on my Snapchat, but Klauss and I broke up. It wasn't something that I could see myself persuing long term, and we both started to want different things so I knew I had to call it off! Things weren't right for a while but I was trying my hardest to continue because we were in love. :/
That's probably the juiciest thing that has happened to me since we last spoke, other than the fact that I started talking to Chris again.

Don't worry about it girl, its okay. I've been busy and tired so I didnt get the chance to jump on here. Thanks girl:) I know it should but due to the nature of the job, I have to work Christmas day. * hugs* You're most welcome! Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear that you guys broke up. I did see on your Snapchat but thought I'd ask on here so that you dont have to keep explaining it. Ahh I see well if you both left on mutual terms then I suppose its okay. Sometimes when you know its not meant to be then its best to just end things and move forward with life. I hope you're okay though. *big hugs* Omg no way have you started speaking to Chris again..so how is that going? At work I have to work with 5/6 different other staff and I dont like the female environment cause they're all so catty and gossip about one another and somehow I end up being in the middle of it which is so annoying:/ I enjoy my job but these days it makes me depressed cause I just dont like the environment.

Thank you Zoya! I am proud of myself as well for passing math. Yeah, I'm annoyed! Whatever, now I'm basically broke! There's no time to find a new job before I go to school, but I got a decent amount of cash for Christmas so I will try to make that last. You're welcome! How has your new position been going? I know it's been a while since we talked! Wow how rude! How dare your manager ignore your hard work on the Christmas tree. How was working Christmas Day? Everywhere should be closed on Christmas Day, in my opinion! I bought Christmas gifts for everyone, but I still can't find anything for Sarah! She's going to get a late gift once I find something, but she doesn't mind. Nah girl my reply is the latest. I haven't been using my laptop as much as usual recently! :P
The next time I talk to you it'll be 2020, so happy new year, hope the new year brings you lots of good times and opportunities.

You're welcome Nicole and so you should be proud:) Oh no sorry to hear about that. But I'm glad you got some decent amount of money for Christmas. Good luck with making it last. Well I havent started my new position as of yet as I'm going to be attending training at the end of January and then will start the position. Its been a long time since we last spoke! Well actually my manager actually did like the Christmas tree even though she didnt reply to my message. I worked 11 hours on Christmas day. It was quite long and boring as there was nothing to do but I had Christmas dinner with the women so that was nice. I agree, work should be closed on Christmas but oh well it is what it is. Oh no that sucks you couldnt get a gift for Sarah but I'm sure she'll be okay with you getting her a late gift. Thats alright, as we've both been busy. Omg yes it will be. Aw thank you Nicole:) Happy new year to you too! I hope you have a good and prosperous new year filled with great memories and happiness:) cannot believe its the last day of the decade!

Good news! I passed my math class, I just saw the grades go up tonight! I got a C (which is fine) and As in all my other classes! Yeah about that, my boss basically told me the day care doesn't need me as much anymore. She asked for my availability over Christmas break and that was it, so I should probably look for a new job! I'm salty about it because she basically promised me that I would have my job when I came home from school. Oh that sounds like an interesting field. I wish you luck in that Restorative Justice position! Thanks girl, I am feeling much better now! I was feeling so awful last week I couldn't do anything! I hope you were able to set up your Christmas tree and everything at work without much trouble. We decorated the tree at my mom's house last night, speaking of that so our house is all Christmasy now! :D
But yeah I can't believe Christmas is next week it doesn't feel real.

Aw yayy congrats Nicole, I'm so proud of you for passing your Math! Knew you could do it:) A C is still good! Omg are you serious? Cant believe she said she doesnt need you no more like why make promises if you arent going to need them in the end *rolls eyes* Good luck finding a job! Thank you so much, I cant wait to get started soon:p You're welcome and I'm glad you're feeling better now. I did set up the tree and it looks really good! My manager was off sick last week so I sent her the picture of the Christmas Tree via Whatsapp and she didnt respond to it:/ Ooh thats good, I bet your house is looking lit and festive:) Omg I can't believe Christmas is this week! Time has flown. I have to work Christmas day:/ Have you done all your Christmas shopping? (Sorry for the late reply)

Thank you Zoya! I feel like I passed my math final but I'll know for sure once grades go up in like two weeks! I e-mailed my boss and told her I was home and wanted to start working next week, but she hasn't gotten back to me. If she doesn't answer tomorrow I'm going to contact the assistant director, she might be more likely to reply! Ooooh, sounds fancy! So what exactly is Restorative Justice? No problem. I got home yesterday and I haven't been feeling too good. One of my roommates has the flu, and another had a headcold, so I think I caught something from them! D:
I don't have a fever but I'm still pretty achey and coughing and sneezing.

You're welcome Nicole:) ooh thats brilliant, hope you have passed as you worked hard for your Math final! Oh no, I hope your boss has got back to you now:/ Restrorative Justice is basically bringing the victim and offender together so the victim can talk about how they were effected by the crime the offender committed. Oh no, thats terrible:( I hope you feel better soon! I had to buy a Christmas tree and decorations for work today and it was annoying! I'm gonna make sure my manager helps me set it up tomorrow!

That's okay. I guess we'll have to accept that our replies aren't going to be on time anymore! Thank you. I'm so glad all my work is done and my classes are over, but I am still so stressed over my math final even though I am studying a lot! I'm so excited to go back to work over break. I miss making money and I miss being around children all day. Oh wow you're working a lot of hours. But I bet the paychecks are so worth it! Ooooh, that's exciting! What will you be doing volunteering at the police department? I see I see, that happens sometimes. It's so annoying when things change up at work when you're so used to your usual routine. :/
I hope things get better for you with all this stuff changing at work!

Yeah I guess so. Life is getting busy for both of us. You're welcome. Oh no, good luck on your Math final...hope you do well and pass! Aw I bet you are but before you know it, you'll be doing what you love and getting paid again. Yepp I'm back to full time so my paychecks will be nice:p I'll be doing Restorative Justice in the police department which I'm looking forward to. I know, I'm not used to the change just yet but I'm sure soon I'll be fine with it. Thanks girl, I hope so too. I had the most exhasuting day today and I'm just so ready to sleep right now!

Thank you so much Zoya! I missed talking to you, so I'm glad to hear from you. Yes ma'am. This week is my last week of classes! I only have one final exam, and it's a week from today! My cousin is picking me up from school next Tuesday! Oooooh, fancy. Sham is a good friend. I had a really nice week off, and I enjoyed my Thanksgiving as well. I got to see my family, all my friends, and of course Muffin! I didn't really have much time to myself though since I was so busy being social! That's okay! We're both busy, it's okay. I'll be a bit less busy soon once I am on Christmas break, but I do have plans to work at the daycare then. :P
What's new?

You're most welcome Nicole:) Glad to hear from you as well girl..I've missed our chats. Sorry again for the late reply. Yayy thats good its your last week of classes. Good luck with your exam! Thats nice of your cousin to pick you up from school. Sham definitely is a good friend and I'm lucky to have her:) Glad to hear you had a lovely week off and enjoyed Thanksgiving:) Aw I bet it was lovely seeing your family, friends and your little Muffin. Well it's good to be social but also good to have some me time. Thats good you'll get to work at the daycare again. No problem thats fine. I'll try replying fast as I can. Well whats new with me...I've gone back to full time at work and finish at 7pm most days. Today I got my ID picture taken at Police Headquarters for my volunteering role. The lady who took my picture was so sweet and gave me the most sweetest compliment which made my day. I'm also gonna be working with other staff at my workplace which is kinda weird cause I'm so used to working independently. Work had been so busy lately as we've had a lot of changes:/

Let me know how the animated Addams Family is! I'm sure Morticia will slay as usual. My semester ends in about two weeks! I am home this week for Thanksgiving, then I go back to school for one more week and then it's finals week and then that's the end. Aw fun! What did Sham end up getting you for a birthday present this early? My weekend was really fun! I hung out with my friend Victoria at her dorm on Saturday night, then on Sunday I went to a Friendsgiving with her friends and that was a really good time too, her friends are cool now. My suitemate Mandy drove me home on Monday night, since her town is less than an hour from me, and here I am! I go back to school on Sunday, sigh, but for now I am just enjoying my time off! :)
Tomorrow I am spending the evening with my family for Thanksgiving and I am really excited about that.

I havent got round to watching the animated version of Addams Family yet as work had been crazy busy and I've been ao tired. Happy belated thanksgiving, hope all went well:) I take it this is your last week of School then? Sham got my a really nice but expensive skin care set:) Thats so cool you had a friendsgiving, sounds like a lot of fun. Thats nice of Mandy to drive you home. Hope you enjoyed your time off and had a lovely thanksgiving with family:) I'm so sorry for the late reply:/

No problem Zoya! At this point we are both busy and replying late so it's okay. Oh, I thought you were in court for five hours! But waiting for it to start for that long is even worse! You should watch it, I bet it's cute! I really liked the original live action The Addams Family, such a classic. :D
I'm so ready for this semester to end man, it's been so much work these past couple weeks!

Yeah we're both definitely busy so I suppose late replies are okay at this stage. Yeah waiting around in court is long! I love the original Addams family but I'm definitely going to watch the animation soon hopefully. Aw I can imagine you do want it to be over but this is the last week before your Semester ends right as its Thanksgiving on Thursday. I spent the day shopping with Sham yesterday which was nice. She got me a super early birthday present which was nice of her:) hows your weekend going?

Thanks Zoya! I really am going to try to reply to you as soon as possible! Yeah. Klauss and I are talking much less these days because school is keeping the both of us really busy, so I really value what little time we get to spend with each other! Wow those do sound like very eventful days. But it's all part of the job, right? Standing in court for five hours sounds rough though. :/
In other news, Mandy (one of my suitemates) and I went to see Last Christmas in the movies tonight; it was such a cute movie and it took place in London and everyone had accents so I thought of you.

You're welcome Nicole:) Thats okay girl, I'm trying to my best to reply to you as well but work leaves me so exhausted. So I apologise for my late replies. Ahh I see, well thats understandable. As long as you cherish the moments you do get together then thats what counts. They were very busy and eventful days alright. But yes it is part of the job. Oh no I wasnt standing in court for 5 hours I was waiting that long for the hearing to get started. I've got a day off work tomorrow but I'm going to go in for a few hours as I need to do some work. Aw that movie sounds interesting, glad you thought of me when you heard those London accents;) I had dinner at my uncles house tonight which was lovely but I'm so tired now. I really want to watch The Addams Family in cinemas..you know the animation one.

Thank you. I'm so sorry for the late reply by the way. School has been so busy, and I have been so busy. I wanted to log on and reply to you as soon as possible though! I know right? It's crazy to think that my little sister is now officially entered into adulthood! Oh no, what was the work emergency? Were you able to get through it alright? It felt so weird to go home, even if it was for just one night! It was nice to see the family though, and of course Muffin. I was glad to get back up to school though and to get back in my routine. This past weekend was chill! Klauss came over to spend one night (sadly, not two this time since things have been so busy) at my dorm! :)
I get to go home for like five days for Thanksgiving in two weeks, so I am looking forward to being home and chilling and seeing all my friends!

You're welcome. Honestly, no need to apologise as I've been super busy myself. Aw thats sweet of you..but I understand you're busy so take your time girl. Can't believe your sister is 18, shes the same age as my little sister:p Oh the work emergency was just an important meeting with the women. Aw thats good, least you got to see your family and Muffin even if it was for 1 day. Well 1 night spent with Klauss is better than no night right:p oh yeah Thanksgiving is not too far off for you...I'm sure you're very excited about that! I've had a busy two days at work. Yesterday the detectives came to my workplace to do a video interview for one of my women which took a long while. But I had a good conversation with the police officer. Today I had to go court as one of my other women wanted to take a restraining order out against her husband. We were at court for almost 5 hours! The process was so long winded. However the attorney was a nice young guy who really knew his stuff. Plus he praised me which was nice. I saw my woman's husband as he walked past me twice and he smiled at me but I didnt smile back obviously. Thankfully he didnt recognise me. These past two days, I didnt even get the chance to have a lunch break cause I've been so busy. But I'm in bed now and ready to go sleep.

No problem. That's a very good way to look at it! Besides, you look your best to other people when you truly love yourself, you know? The Logic concert was a lot of fun on Friday night. It was my birthday present for Sam basically, she turned 18 yesterday, if you can believe that! Ah my little sister is a legal adult it's wild! How was your time with Sham? And how was your girls day on Saturday? I feel like we haven't talked in such a long time oh my gosh it has been such a long weekend. I had a busy one myself. Halloween night i went out to a pretzel bar with Sarah and Klauss, Friday I went to the concert with Julia and Sam, last night I actually went home to surprise my family, and today I drove back up to school after spending the majority of the day chilling with Muffin. :3
But now it's back to the old grind; it felt so weird to go home for a day and then to come back!

I totally agree with that! Glad you had fun at the Logic concert. Happy belated birthday to Sam. Cant believe shes 18 already! Shes now a young adult:p I had to cancel my date with Sham as I had a work emergency. The girls day on Saturday was good...it was a nice a catchup plus good food too. I know, it feels forever since we last spoke:p Wow you've definitely had an eventful weekend. Hope you enjoyed yourself though. How did it feel going back home? Aw I can imagine it would feel weird coming home for a day but I suppose its cause you've gotten used to staying at College. I've had a busy week at work so I've been going to bed early. I have a busy weekend ahead though! Do you have any plans for the weekend?

No problem. *hugs* That's a good choice! You do you girl, the right person will come along when you least expect it! Aw nice you had a family weekend! That's fair, it can be hard switching back into that work mode after some time off. My weekend was pretty chill, nothing too crazy going on. This week is going to be busy though, I have plans with friends on Wednesday and Thursday nights, and then Friday night I'm going to a concert! :D
My mom wants me to come home this coming weekend but I declined; now that I'm half moved out, I would rather not live at home, you feel me?

*hugs* Thanks girl, I'm just gonna focus on myself. I sure did:) Yeah it can be hard but I've slowly adjusted to it. Ooh look at you with all those fun plans! Hope you have a good time at the concert:p Ahh right I see, I get what you mean...once you get used to moving out of home, you'd rather just be in your own space. I'm seeing Sham tomorrow so I'm looking forward to that. On Saturday me and my cousins are gonna have a girls day, where we're gonna order food and have a catchup. On Sunday my aunt is inviting me and my family over for dinner so that should be nice. Got a busy 3 day weekend ahead!

Oof, I'm sorry. I feel that though, I think I recall telling you that I want to switch to another doctor because I don't like my current one's attitude! You're right Zoya! There's a bit of a lull in the semester right now, which is much welcomed! Sorry for the late reply by the way, I had two busy nights out. No problem. *hugs* Don't feel bad, you'll find the right person when you are ready. Right now it seems you are focusing on your job and your career which is totally fine! Thank you very much! I'm proud of myself for putting a step in the direction of getting help. Ah I'm sorry girl, do you think it could be your posture? I myself need to work on sitting up straighter, because I get random back pain spasms at times! Nothing too serious but it is annoying! xD
How has your weekend been going?

You should definitely switch doctors if your current one is giving you attitude! Thanks girl. Ahh right I see. Thats okay, no need to apologise. *hugs* I don't feel bad as I'm interested in getting into a relationship right now anyway. I just want to focus on myself and my career. You're most welcome. So you should be proud as its not easy seeking help. I think it probably is my posture as I dont really sit that straight. I definitely need to work on my posture. My weekend went well. My nieces and nephews came down so it was nice seeing them. I went back to work today and had a productive day which was good but I was so tired. I feel like my brain was still on holiday mode though. How was your weekend?

Oh no. A deep cleaning does not sound fun. Thank you for saying that! I'm already lowkey stressed about next semester, but I still need to focus on getting through this one! Aw congratulations to Hena. I feel like a lot of your friends or people you know are getting married. But I guess you're at that age where that starts to happen right? :P
Oh I have some good news for you: I gathered up the courage to call the counseling services at school yesterday, and I was able to make an appointment with them; it's not for a few weeks but hey I did it!

I know but its gotta be done. I'm gonna switch to a different dentist after next week because I don't like the attitude of some of the girls who work there *rolls eyes* You're welcome. Its normal to be stressed but just focus on the present for now. Thanks girl. Yeah pretty much most of my friends are married and have had babies too. Haha yeah I'm at that age where everyone keeps asking me when I'm getting married etc. It can be annoying sometimes but everything happens in its own timing:p Aw go you Nicole! I'm so proud of you for finally taking the step to make an appointment with the counsellor. *hugs* I've got the worst back and shoulder pain right now which is so frustrating:/

Thanks for saying that! But it seems that no matter how hard I work, I still can't get a good math grade! True! Can't wait to work over Christmas break and get that moneyyyyy, I miss it. No problem. I don't blame you, a week is the perfect time to relax. Oof, good luck at the dentist tomorrow! Going shopping and to the park sounded like a fun day though! Yay, you're finally treating yourself. I bet you are really looking forward to that little spa day. So next semester I am taking a creative writing class, a classic rhetoric class (which sounds boring and apparently the professor who teaches it is really tough but I know her already so maybe she'll go easy on me), an animal biology class, a children's literature class, and a young adult literature class! I'm planning on adding a sixth class over Christmas break, since that's the only way I can add more credits so I would be able to finish my bachelor's degree by next spring! I'm going to be busy, but I think I can handle it! :P
Anything new with you though, or same old same old?

You're welcome girl. Whether you're good or not at Math at least you're trying your best which is the main thing. Haha yes girk you get that money:p I agree, it definitely is and I'm actually enjoying my week off even though I dont have much planned. My dentist appointment went well but I have to go back next Wednesday for deep cleaning. Its not really a spa day as I'm just getting a facial but nonetheless I'm still looking forward to it. Ooh look at you taking all those classes. But they sound like really interesting classes. But go you for going that extra mile to get those credits for your degree! Best of luck with it! I'm sure you'll be able to handle it and do well. Tbh there's nothing really interesting going on in my life at present. Same old with me:p But my friend Hena got married last week and she looked pretty.

Thank you. Now I just need to lift up my average for my math class to a C! Hopefully I can do that by the end of the semester! I don't want to have to take the class again! Yes, buying Taylor tickets certainly lifted my spirits. However, they were very expensive. Put a pretty big dent in my bank account, oops. Klauss enjoyed the little gathering we had for him, he wasn't expecting it! It was nice to see some people I hadn't seen in a while, and of course nice as always to see the boyfriend. That's awesome. I'm excited for your break from work, what do you have planned? :D
I got to select my classes for next semester this morning and I'm pretty excited about them.

You're welcome. I have no doubt that you'll bring that grade up to a C as you do work hard! Hopefully you won't have to take that class again. I'm glad buying tickets to see Taylor has lifted up your spirits even if it has left a hole in your bank account however you can always make that money again right? Glad to hear Klauss enjoyed his mini gathering. Sounds like a lovely celebration:) Thanks girl and well I dont have much planned. I just want to relax this week. I went shopping with my mom today and took my little cousin to the park. Tomorrow I have a dentist appointment which I am dreading eek:/ Then on the weekend I am going to get a facial and my eyebrows done. I was thinking of getting a haircut too maybe. Ooh that sounds exciting, what classes have you selected for next semester?

Good news, I passed my math test! I got a 70, which is a C but it's passing! Ooh girl I think cucumbers help with eye bags! I'm sure you can find a home remedy for those. I've only been on birth control for a month, and sometimes it takes a few months to regulate! So I am dealing with it for the time being! You're right! Klauss is like, "Just call them and get help" and I'm like "It's not that easy." Thanks girl, I am doing better, physical wise. Mentally too, since I just bought tickets to see Taylor Swift today. The concert is not until July, but I am soooo excited, I wasn't expecting to be able to go! :D
But yeah in other news, Klauss's birthday is on Friday and we're having a little party for him at his school so I'm also looking forward to that!

Aw yay congrats on getting that C girl! I've heard cucumbers work wonders for dark circles so I'm going to look into trying that remedy. Ahh right I see. Yeah its never easy making an appointment with a counselor as its a big step so only do it when you're ready. You're welcome. Glad to hear you're doing better now. Thats awesome, I bet getting tickets to see Taylor has lifted your mood now!:D Well so you should be excited as you deserve to go see bae! Ooh that sounds lovely, I'm sure Klauss will enjoy that little party. I'm off work next week and soo happy as I really need a break!