brianamae

Status: you showed me how to be happy again-and then you broke me
Joined: September 30, 2011
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Location: head in the clouds; angel zone
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brianamae 1 decade ago to andyy
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its honestly terrible haha
it just started this week, and im like dying
i can barely keep my eyes open haha
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brianamae 1 decade ago to andyy
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oh that cant be good haha
and yeah ive been awake since 4 this morning for swim practice :/
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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oh boy...wow thats crazy i know you've heard this so many times already but im sorry, your gonna be okay. your names alex right? well i know your gonna get through this because you have two amazing, strong, and wonderful angels watching over you
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I'm Connor. Alex is my oldest brother, the one who killed himself fourteen years ago. I know I do, but that is the only family I have besides my wife and son. I gotta stay here for them.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay if you ever need anything though...i'll be here. and i know how you feel 2 years ago my boyfriend died in a car accident..it was the worst thing ever. it doesnt get better right away but you need to trust me on this one, it will get better
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Jaxy just died on Friday. That still stings. Then today is 11/11, meaning its the anniversary of the death of my oldest brother, who also committed suicide. It's also his birthday.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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oh boy...wow thats crazy i know you've heard this so many times already but im sorry, your gonna be okay. your names alex right? well i know your gonna get through this because you have two amazing, strong, and wonderful angels watching over you
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I'm Connor. Alex is my oldest brother, the one who killed himself fourteen years ago. I know I do, but that is the only family I have besides my wife and son. I gotta stay here for them.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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is there anything i can do to help?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not really :/ thanks though. It's basically just, I can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay if you ever need anything though...i'll be here. and i know how you feel 2 years ago my boyfriend died in a car accident..it was the worst thing ever. it doesnt get better right away but you need to trust me on this one, it will get better
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Jaxy just died on Friday. That still stings. Then today is 11/11, meaning its the anniversary of the death of my oldest brother, who also committed suicide. It's also his birthday.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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oh boy...wow thats crazy i know you've heard this so many times already but im sorry, your gonna be okay. your names alex right? well i know your gonna get through this because you have two amazing, strong, and wonderful angels watching over you
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I'm Connor. Alex is my oldest brother, the one who killed himself fourteen years ago. I know I do, but that is the only family I have besides my wife and son. I gotta stay here for them.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Are you okay?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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No. But I'll be fine.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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is there anything i can do to help?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not really :/ thanks though. It's basically just, I can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay if you ever need anything though...i'll be here. and i know how you feel 2 years ago my boyfriend died in a car accident..it was the worst thing ever. it doesnt get better right away but you need to trust me on this one, it will get better
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Jaxy just died on Friday. That still stings. Then today is 11/11, meaning its the anniversary of the death of my oldest brother, who also committed suicide. It's also his birthday.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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oh boy...wow thats crazy i know you've heard this so many times already but im sorry, your gonna be okay. your names alex right? well i know your gonna get through this because you have two amazing, strong, and wonderful angels watching over you
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I'm Connor. Alex is my oldest brother, the one who killed himself fourteen years ago. I know I do, but that is the only family I have besides my wife and son. I gotta stay here for them.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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wow...thats pretty confusing...how did she come back?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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We have no effing clue.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Are you okay?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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No. But I'll be fine.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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is there anything i can do to help?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not really :/ thanks though. It's basically just, I can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay if you ever need anything though...i'll be here. and i know how you feel 2 years ago my boyfriend died in a car accident..it was the worst thing ever. it doesnt get better right away but you need to trust me on this one, it will get better
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Jaxy just died on Friday. That still stings. Then today is 11/11, meaning its the anniversary of the death of my oldest brother, who also committed suicide. It's also his birthday.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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oh boy...wow thats crazy i know you've heard this so many times already but im sorry, your gonna be okay. your names alex right? well i know your gonna get through this because you have two amazing, strong, and wonderful angels watching over you
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I'm Connor. Alex is my oldest brother, the one who killed himself fourteen years ago. I know I do, but that is the only family I have besides my wife and son. I gotta stay here for them.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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sure you can explain
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Hi, im very confused on what happened, could you please explain?
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Thump929 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Mind if I explain? Hey, I'm Bambi. Sorry, jsut stalking Jax's old witty
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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sure you can explain
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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It's so confusing. My brother Jax, he killed himself after the girl he was in love with killed herself. I'm his brother. Somehow the girl he was in love with is alive ^ tha girl ^ because somehow she came back and no ones sure but it's a miracle. Jax is dead.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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wow...thats pretty confusing...how did she come back?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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We have no effing clue.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Are you okay?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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No. But I'll be fine.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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is there anything i can do to help?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not really :/ thanks though. It's basically just, I can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay if you ever need anything though...i'll be here. and i know how you feel 2 years ago my boyfriend died in a car accident..it was the worst thing ever. it doesnt get better right away but you need to trust me on this one, it will get better
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Jaxy just died on Friday. That still stings. Then today is 11/11, meaning its the anniversary of the death of my oldest brother, who also committed suicide. It's also his birthday.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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oh boy...wow thats crazy i know you've heard this so many times already but im sorry, your gonna be okay. your names alex right? well i know your gonna get through this because you have two amazing, strong, and wonderful angels watching over you
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I'm Connor. Alex is my oldest brother, the one who killed himself fourteen years ago. I know I do, but that is the only family I have besides my wife and son. I gotta stay here for them.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Sorry! i mixed up the names, and yes you do, they would hate to lose you too. what's your sons name?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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His name is Jake
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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awh how old is he?
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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He's only five.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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thats even more of a reason for you to be in his life. he needs you so you better not be going anywhere!(: God wanted both of your brothers with him for some reason, maybe it was sure you can have them watching over you and protecting you and your family at all times
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Not fair though. Two brothers, gone to suicide, using the same gun. Jax watched Alex do it, I watched Jax do it. History repeats itself.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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hey dont even think about it! you need to be here on this earth okay? yes both of them went the same way, im sorry you had to see that, but would you want your wife or son to experience that with you? everything happens for a reason, even if you dont know the reason..someone else does and they have big plans for you. thats why you need to stick around and see it.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I wasnt planning on it. I gotta satay here. But I still can't believe he's gone.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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okay good. i know...its like you walk past his room and expect him to be there right? or you go into the kitchen and expect him to be sitting there..but he's not. i know how you feel, it gets better Connor, this only happened friday. you need time to get over this
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I keep looking in the garage. I refuse to walk into the kitchen or near his room. We (the twenty of us) are all just sitting in the basement.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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:( its gonna be okay, i promise
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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God, I'm a twenty four year old man, I sound sixteen.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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You've lost both of your brothers...i think its okay for you to be upset! jesus cry for days if you have to! but what matters is when you finally get all of that out, you need to know how to handle it the right way.
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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I remember how. I was ten when Alex died.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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Well just do what you did last time. and thats terrible, im so sorry
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jaxonjr114 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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S'okay.
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brianamae 1 decade ago to jaxonjr114
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how are you feeling?
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brianamae 1 decade ago to MiaOhMia
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he doesnt know i know..
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brianamae 1 decade ago to icanmakeyourhipster
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ohmygod your so pretty...its insane...i cant take it, your gorgeous
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