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Please read this...

Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That’s right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They wont be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they’ll hear that song, remember,that song you sang with them once? They’ll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there?? Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. That’s not right... One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark. The pain you are in is awful, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as ‘the kid who killed themselves?’ People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you’ve done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think ;; “was there something i could have done?” Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All those little hints you gave, they’ll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them all the time. Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope, without you? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did. Could they have saved you? They’ll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn’t you tell them? They loved you. And now it’s too late. They’ll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they’ll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew.. And one day, one day years from now, they’ll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that sat up the front of your class; she’ll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning; he’ll remember you. That little girl you sat with on the bus once, The kid you leant money to at the shop, all your siblings friends, the people that you dont see, but that see you everyday they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder; why? But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? .. Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you’re dead?? Who finds you? Please, there are other ways out. I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it’s not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please, don’t give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who commited suicide: “I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people, it doesn’t only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you..” Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you’re facing now. It may be hard, but you’ll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more.. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you’re ever feeling so low. Give people the chance to help you.

i'm posting this again because everyone needs to read it.

If you're going to read anything, read this...

Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That’s right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They wont be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they’ll hear that song, remember,that song you sang with them once? They’ll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there?? Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. That’s not right... One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark. The pain you are in is awful, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as ‘the kid who killed themselves?’ People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you’ve done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think ;; “was there something i could have done?” Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All those little hints you gave, they’ll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them all the time. Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope, without you? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did. Could they have saved you? They’ll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn’t you tell them? They loved you. And now it’s too late. They’ll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they’ll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew.. And one day, one day years from now, they’ll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that sat up the front of your class; she’ll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning; he’ll remember you. That little girl you sat with on the bus once, The kid you leant money to at the shop, all your siblings friends, the people that you dont see, but that see you everyday they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder; why? But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? .. Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you’re dead?? Who finds you? Please, there are other ways out. I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it’s not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please, don’t give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who commited suicide: “I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people, it doesn’t only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you..” Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you’re facing now. It may be hard, but you’ll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more.. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you’re ever feeling so low. Give people the chance to help you.

 If you really knew 

me...
 

If you really knew me, you would know that I don't know what being truly happy feels like anymore.  If you really knew me, you would know the scars on my wrist aren't from my cat, because I don't even have a cat. There from the self harm I've been inflicting on myself for over a year now.  If you really knew me, you would know that I am unhappy with the person I've become.  I hate the way I look, and the way I act.  If you really knew me, you would know I've thought about suicide before, but something stopped me.  I don't really know what though.  If you really knew me, you would know that everyone I have ever trusted have showed me a reason why I shouldn't have.  You would know that I'm searching for the person I want to be.  If you really knew me, you would know that I don't get along with my dad at all. You would know that I'm afraid to be alone in the same room as him. We always end up fighting. If you really knew me, you would know that I don't think I'll ever find someone who loves me for who I am.  Who accepts me even with my insecurities, scars, and flaws.  If you really knew me, you would know that I'm quickly losing hope in our society.  If you really knew me, you would know that I think I'm developing an eating disorder because of the high standards that society has set for teens now a days.  If you really knew me, you would know that I just need someone to give me hope, and to help me get through the day.

Look inside that girl over there.
Inside her, you'll see a girl who's experienced heartbreak, experienced disappointment,  and has been
living a lie.                     But, if you really look inside her,                    you'll see someone who has lived through that  
heartbreak,                                                            who has overcome that disappointment, and who is finally noticing that 

not everything is a lie. ♥










Quote Credit: Mine!

Format Credit: my bestest friend Nicole!♥

Missing You♥
(Part 8)


By the time Marilyn got to my house I had put away my new work clothes, showered, and gotten into to some comfy black sweats from Aeropostale.  I had also ordered Chinese food for us.  While I wait, I decide to go into the living room and see if there are any new movies for us to rent OnDemand.  As I'm doing that, I hear Marilyn's car pull up into my drive way, and hurry up to open the front door.
"Rylen!  Oh my gosh, how you have been?!  We haven't seen each other in forever!"
"Marilyn, we saw each other two weeks ago!"
"Oh, that's right... I'm a little out of sorts lately, don't know why."
"Well, I hope you're hungry, I ordered some Chinese food and I figured we'd just rent a movie, and stuff like that."
"Sounds good to me!  Boy, I have so much to tell you!"
After she puts her weekend bag in the guest room she comes into the kitchen to help get plates for the Chinese which had arrived shortly after she did.  We ate and caught up with a bunch of small talk, and then, as we finishing dinner, she said she had some big news concerning her and her long time boyfriend Chandler.  At first I though it was something bad, but the smile on her face gave it all away, it was obviously good news.
"Me and Chandler are engaged!"
"Oh my gosh, no way!"
"Yes.  He proposed two nights ago when we went on that river cruise together.  We were eating a candle light dinner when all of a sudden he got out of his chair and then got down on one knee.  It was romantic!"
"That's so cute!"  As I say it, I begin to clear the dishes so she wouldn't see the look on my face.  Well, it didn't work.
"What's wrong Rylen?"
"Don't get me wrong, I'm so beyond happy for you, but I just miss Jake so much..."
"Awh, honey I know you do.  I miss him too.  I promise you though, that Chandler and I are not getting married until he can be here too."
"It's just so hard, I miss him like crazy.  We try to talk at least once a week, but sometimes he's just so busy."
"I know baby, I know.  He'll be back in less than two years though, just let that keep you going, and aren't you going to visit in like a month or so?"
"Yeah, and I positively can't wait.  It's going to be so great to see him again."
Two months down, twenty two more to go...



Sorry it took so long guys! I'm going to try and write more often, so keep checking for updates!
2-3 updates before the next one! ♥

Just because I'm smiling, doesn't mean I'm happy.. </3
 

 

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