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Oh God. Well ...if this helps at all, I went through something similar recently with a good friend of mine - me being your friend in this scenario, and my friend playing you. I can't speak on behalf of her, but I know for me even though the few people who know have tried to talk to me about it, I'll just shut down every time because i don't WANT to talk about it. I can't talk about it; that's why I didn't tell anyone for about five years. Luckily for me I'm not so bad anymore, but I'm still battling my depression and sometimes it does get really hard. I don't think you should try to heal her and get her to tell you her problems and work through them with her, because you can't. You can't heal her; only she can heal herself. But I know how this must really be breaking your heart. If she hasn't told you for this long, it's not definitely because she doesn't feel she can tell you - more like you've become a distraction and a break from the darkness she's in, someone who helps her take the darkness away for a bit, and she doesn't want to lose that. Just ... I don't know; if someone had just treated me like I was a normal person who was going through some problems, instead of a ticking time bomb that needed to be saved, I would've been in a much better position. Take a deep breath, and go easy on yourself - just be there for her, and let her know you're still going to be her friend no matter what happening. Just knowing she's not alone, and she has someone who'll love her whether or not she ever gets out of this - I think that is the best bit of help you can give her. I'm still waiting for that.
She'll still the same person she always was sunshine. Don't let this knowledge of her illness define her for you. From what I can gather, you're a pretty good friend ... you don't need to do anything else apart from love her like you're already doing :)
take care of yourself. don't beat yourself up about this: if not knowing for so long is getting to you, just remember that the only way you would have been able to know is if she let you. It's not your fault.
Lots of love xxx

hey sunshine, what happened?

Well I found out my best friend has been suicidal for 2 years and she just broke up with her boyfriend and was talking about killing herself :( I don't know what to do cause she won't talk to me about it (she told him if her parents had a gun she'd already be gone, then he told me). I told her I'm always here for her and how much I care about her and all she said was "thanks". We've been best friends for 5 years and she never even mentioned it to me so and now that I know she won't talk to me about it. We've been friends for so long and we usually tell each other everything but she just won't talk to me about this.

Oh God. Well ...if this helps at all, I went through something similar recently with a good friend of mine - me being your friend in this scenario, and my friend playing you. I can't speak on behalf of her, but I know for me even though the few people who know have tried to talk to me about it, I'll just shut down every time because i don't WANT to talk about it. I can't talk about it; that's why I didn't tell anyone for about five years. Luckily for me I'm not so bad anymore, but I'm still battling my depression and sometimes it does get really hard. I don't think you should try to heal her and get her to tell you her problems and work through them with her, because you can't. You can't heal her; only she can heal herself. But I know how this must really be breaking your heart. If she hasn't told you for this long, it's not definitely because she doesn't feel she can tell you - more like you've become a distraction and a break from the darkness she's in, someone who helps her take the darkness away for a bit, and she doesn't want to lose that. Just ... I don't know; if someone had just treated me like I was a normal person who was going through some problems, instead of a ticking time bomb that needed to be saved, I would've been in a much better position. Take a deep breath, and go easy on yourself - just be there for her, and let her know you're still going to be her friend no matter what happening. Just knowing she's not alone, and she has someone who'll love her whether or not she ever gets out of this - I think that is the best bit of help you can give her. I'm still waiting for that.
She'll still the same person she always was sunshine. Don't let this knowledge of her illness define her for you. From what I can gather, you're a pretty good friend ... you don't need to do anything else apart from love her like you're already doing :)
take care of yourself. don't beat yourself up about this: if not knowing for so long is getting to you, just remember that the only way you would have been able to know is if she let you. It's not your fault.
Lots of love xxx

<3 no worries dude. no worries at all
take care x

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this is seriously the best :) thank you so much

<3 no worries dude. no worries at all
take care x

oh teenage drama. like if i gave this to my younger brother he'd probs just hand it back to me and run to ohio or take twenty minutes to get over his blankness ;)
hey don't worry, been here done this many many times. i know how it sucks. i feel really bad for you; the whole situation sounds maddening enough. you okay? you holding up alright?
i dunno, from here it seems your friend lexi is the one with the problem. like, if she says she's not talking to you because she wants you to 'be calm', its probably because she's mad herself. for whatever reason. this will probably be the last thing you want to hear, but i don't think there is anything you can really do to 'make this better', as such.
i don't know how long its been since this fiasco happened, but from my exp., we talked a week later. he called me, i didn't call him, so i knew he was ready to talk. but you might as well text and ask if she wants to talk later, and i guarantee she probably will. but ... give her time, too. i don't think what she did was in anyway fair to you, but of she does want to talk to you, i guarantee if she goes on a rant, the first 25% of what she tells you will be complete and utter BS - cuz she'll need to get everything off her chest before she tells your what's really going on. in the mean time, be kind to yourself, and take care, yeah? maybe talk to someone - anyone - just to get everything off your chest. things will happen when they happen - but if she don't wanna talk, you can't really do much, if you get what im saying?
hope this helps. i can't guarantee things will work out ... mine didn;t always ... but things will get better. at least one of either the pain or drama will die down.
take care xxx

Haha yeah it gets really annoying and this always happens to me. It just Hirt so much this time Because I didn't want to like the other guy for my stated reason and he made me not like him anymore.i just can't believe that she would do that. We were talking about it and she even told me that she wouldn't say yes if he asked her out. I mean I promise you I could tell she knew I was calm I just think she didn't want to deal with me. She kept telling me she didn't want to loose me as a friend. Yeah right, this is the worst situation to say that in. I don't even think, I know it wasn't fair cause she knew every part of it. I don't want to talk to her and if she does go on a rant I'm gonna let her talk and then be absolutely calm. It annoys the fxck out of people. I don't think there is anything, and frankly I don't really care as long as no one brings it up to me. It happened yesterday put it struck me the minute I read the text. He only talked to me after I talked to Lexi. I would test her later but I wouldn't know what to say. I guess I can just ask her questions. I don't really have anyone to talk to to get it off y chest, that's why I posted it. Thanks it did help. I'll try.
Take care to you too cx

scary isn't it, if you let yourself look at it too closely </3
hang in there buddy xx

Yeahhh it really is. This shows the trust issues our society has placed upon us.

beautiful </3 x

thank you :)

yeah its really freaking me out too
like if theyre actually taking pictures, the faces they get are going to frighten the living dead

oh my god this is perfect
wowie :D x

Thanks, I love it (:

well done you :) x

aww! <3
well ...
1) golden couple: intense hate/love relationship
2) my dad can still do 25 chin ups in one go and not break a sweat. and he hasnt worked out in 20 yrs -_-
3) mum's a drama queen. she wrote the book on how to be emotional
4) overprotective is NOT the word. guess i feel ya there??
I'm not sure if this was warranted, but thanks for telling me :) take care x

Haha thanks for telling me too.

pink

1. Overprotective
2. My dad's pretty chill
3. My mom loves Diet Coke
4. Weather freaks (gotta dress warmly bla blah di da di da)
But I still love them <3

aww! <3
well ...
1) golden couple: intense hate/love relationship
2) my dad can still do 25 chin ups in one go and not break a sweat. and he hasnt worked out in 20 yrs -_-
3) mum's a drama queen. she wrote the book on how to be emotional
4) overprotective is NOT the word. guess i feel ya there??
I'm not sure if this was warranted, but thanks for telling me :) take care x

Haha thanks for telling me too.

sorry x

i'm sorry <3

i know how you feel, dude. i know.
its okay.
but whenever you let that train of thought get so deep inside of you it eats every snippet of self-love and appreciation out of your system, until you're just a numb shell of a nobody, remember this: somebody did love you, even in passing, and somebody will love you, in the future, even if its just a glance out of a coffee-shop window as you go by and a 'damn.' And if they did lie awake at night, loving you, there's no way in hell you'd ever know ... because in a world where we're consumed with such fear and guilt for feeling such intense, dangerous themes, us marvellous pretenders know how to cover up. And how could we ever see someone looking back at us loving us, when we can comprehend the idea of love being directed at us even by ourselves?
I love you man. You're one of my favourite people on here, and some of things you say never fail to make me wonder, or fail to make me smile. So i guess in that totally unstalkerish and uncreepy way :P i love you. So remember that, that the next time you feel alone, somewhere halfway across the world who has n idea who you are and what you look like, only what you have to say, cares a lot about you, and cherishes you just a little.
Cool?
Take care ^-^ x

love this song <3 x

hit me up with your notifications like im the mafia and there's no tomorrow ^-^
i love your work, and i have no doubt this story'll be great as the others :) take care of yourself x

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i love this song x

i know exactly how you feel, dude.
don't worry. you're not alone in this batte in your head and heart <3 stay strong, i believe in you, and one day we'll get through this together xxx