doublesidedice

Status: At the park with no makeup on xD
Joined: January 6, 2013
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 345396
Location: In my own world :p
Gender: F
Hey gus, my name is Elyssa.I'mm the kind of girl who loves to get lost in the music I listen to, or read a good book and never put it down untilI I'm done with it. I laugh way too much, and I rarely ever give second chances, so if I do you better not screw it up. My favorite thing to do is travel and sing when i can't travel. I believe that friends, family, individuality, and love are the keys to happiness and I will never judge anyone because I've been on the other side of that way too many times. I do my best not to push others away since people are all I have left. You are all beautiful and you deserve a lot more than you realize. I love you all!!!!

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So I never really come on anymore... Ever... I'm thinking maybe it's time to say goodbye to Witty, to move on and live my life... I always come on and read quotes but it's repetative lately, I can't find anything I really relate too, but I just feel like I need to stop broadcasting my problems... So maybe this is temporary, but maybe not.. Goodbye to the people I really bonded with on here, 2 imparticlar are doublesidedice and daniigee. I realized now that, looking back on, Witty was the reason I got bad.. I never would have even thought of cutting myself if I didn't see other people doing it, and I had no clue what bulimia was until Witty.. I'm not blaming Witty, I'm just saying that maybe I'm better off without.. Maybe I'll come on and read occassionally, maybe I'll come back and post, but for now, I'm gone. That's not to say I didn't have good times on Witty. It made me smile and laugh, and you all made me feel a little less alone on those lonely nights. I joined about 3 years ago, but I've grown up a bit. I never understood why people left until now. I can't do it anymore, I can't keep up with it. I'm ready to move on and have that thing called a social life, to get off the computer and see the world....even if I am only 15 ;) So, with that being said... Goodbye, Witty. I'll miss you.
2013
A lot of stuff happened. Some of it was great, some of it terrible.

I made a lot of great friends. Both here on witty (doublesidedice and fionarose especially) and at my school. For the first time in my life I truly allowed myself to get close to people. But I lost people too. 2013 taught me that people are going to betray you and leave you but sometimes it's better just to let go
I came back to my faith. I joined my church youth group and relearned who God was. It helped to make me stronger in myself and helped me to fight a lot of battles I wouldn't have survived without it. 
I got into a really bad state of depress.on, caused by fights with friends and family issues. I started scratching everyday. Then a little bit deeper. And a little deeper, until it turned into cutt.ng. I became afraid of myself and the world around me, becoming slightly su.cidal yet again.
My best friend got an eating disorder, self harmed really badly, and I almost lost her to suic.ide.It was really hard and caused a lot of really long hard nights and a lot of pain both for her and for me. And at the same time, I lost her as my true, fully there for me, best friend. Not completely but things are different now. You can only be through so much with somebody until you either grow closer or begin to see each other differently. That's something I had to learn the hard way.
My grandmother got cancer, and for the first time in my life I had a fear that I would lose the one person in my family who I have always been able to talk to.
I started my sophomore year with a lot of stress. For the first time in my life my grades started to slip and I didn't love school. It made me feel lonely and I found myself staring out of windows with wanderlust but also a desire for death.
I spent countless hours talking a random stranger, who is now a friend, Dani, out of throwing herself off a bridge at the young age of 22 in Canada. 
The boy of my dreams asked me to be his girl, for the first time n my life making me feel like I was actually somewhat wanted.
Overall, 2013 year of lessons. Lessons which I will remember but I am ready to leave the year in the past. 
Welcome 2014, I'm ready for you. 
I broke the one promise you wanted me to keep the most baby, I did it again.
 
 

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all wanna know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never
This quote does not exist.
I can remember song lyrics from
2006 but not whatever math
formula we were learning
yesterday



 Somewhere,
things must be beautiful and vivid. Somewhere else, life has to be beautiful and vivid and rich, not like this muted palette- a pale blue bedroom, washed out sunny sky, dull green yellow brown of the fields. Here, I know every twist of the road, in this town, and
I am suffocating.

 NMQ

If you can watch the sun rise and set each day, then pray for me to be there one day.
Holding me close, there’s nothing more you could watch.
But don’t let me slip away just yet, just one more kiss before I go.
A second chance at love that we never got, more than we could hope for.
Lay me down and kiss me until your last breath is gone.
Tossing and turning at night, making wishes on stars and eyelashes.
We could keep this going; we could be so much more than you think know.
You could have a lot to say before you walk away.
Maybe just one last hope that I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine.
An always and forever love, something I need you to help me believe.
Keep your hands in mine and keep out all the sadness that haunts me.
Kiss me twice through the letters you send, the ones I’m living in.
But don’t  let us go.

NMQ

 
we're all ^ just ^ trainwrecks
 + falling apart and falling together +
falling in ~ and out ~ of love
* the best moments of our lives*

 
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me scream?
Can you hear me cry?
Can you hear me suffer?

Can you see me?
Can you see me falling appart?
Can you see me breaking?
Can you see me hide the pain?

Can you feel me?
Can you feel me shake?
Can you feel me breath my last breath?
Can you feel me give up ?

Can you hear me?
Can you see me ?
Can you feel me?
Can you save me?