fckh8rs

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fckh8rs

haters can keep drinkin their haterade
erin<3

Okay i think its finally time i put some stuff bout me....
if you havent already guessed im erin
im 16 and i was brought into this world february 1st
i live in a smallish town called Downers Grove in IL
im fucked up yeah, yeah i know everyone says it but i am
im depressed but i have my highs and that makes me think im bipolar
i've selfharmed for about fiveish years now
i have trust issues and im socially akward
ohh and im an insomniac and music has saved my life
Cady Groves, Paramore, Demi Lovato, BVB, ADTR..
those are just a few of my favorite bands
if you wanna know more then hmu iguess
bye <3

National Suicide Prevention Hotline
1-800-273-8255

This girl right here is part of the reason im still here today..I fucking love her no matter what she does.... I am proud to be a Lovatic

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feelin like complete
s.h.i.t. now

im surrounded by people i love/care about
and yet i cant even put a fake smile on
...what the hell is wrong with me......
i dont know if i can tell them but i think its getting worse
i dont get it the zoloft is supposed to be helping
i dont know what to do
venting:

a couple of weeks ago (about January 30th) i went to my doctor. I told my mom it was because i wasnt sleeping and i hadnt been for a  long time, which is true but i also went in for depression. I went to talk to the doctor by myself cuz i didnt think i could talk about it if my mom was in the room with me. She told me to try some over-the-counter medicine for the sleep and to come back in a few weeks, to see if it helped and to get bloodwork and a thyroid ultrasound. Everything was ok with the blood and my thyroids and i was trying the sleep stuff but it wasnt helping, not with the sleep or depression. On monday i went to see a counselor it was an hour long session. i dont know what i expected but it didnt turn out the way i  thought it would. she had my mom come in at the end of the session and told her that we should talk, even though i told her it wasnt something i could do. Then today i went to the doctor for a follow up again i went in alone. I told my doctor that the sleep stuff wasnt helping so she suggested medication a ssri(its an anti-depressant) she had to bring my mom in and talk to her about it, make sure she was ok with it. And she was but we already know my dad isnt, about a week ago he yelled at my mom saying he "wasnt gonna let his kids be drugged out on that crap" i have a perscription written out and if my dad doesnt come around and say tht me being on the meds is ok with him then  my mom and i are just gonna do it behind his back.......i kind of regret going to get help now i just dont know why

if you read this i love you

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Tell them to remember the stars.
 
   ~Renee Yohe      
                                           
 
       

 
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and maybe it will all be ok


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Love
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rescue is possible

just close your eyes
the sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
come morning light
You and I'll be safe & sound
 
i had three butterflies drawn on my arm
now there all dead and i have cuts all
up and down my arm feelin like a failure now

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