Joined: August 31, 2011
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 214148
Gender: F

My story:
hi; my name is carlee. I'm fourteen! I blow the candles out on July 30th, and i go to a shitty school called torrington high schooll. like every other school in the world, theres drama. and alot of it. I have trust issues, seeing how both of my closest friends lied to me, and broke promises that we had for a while. my closest friends as of right now, are marisa and darlenne (marisalovescarlee101; darlenne). and two of the only ones i trust with absoutly everything. my brother and i have a relationship different than others. we constantly fight, but were as close as you could get. i hold in so many things, to the point i don't even know how to control my emotions anymore. theres so many things behind my smile that nobody even knows about.
now the topic of boys.
theres this kid. who used to be my bestfriend. i trusted him with everything. everything. just yesterday, we got into a huge fight. he was the one i would turn to when i needed somone. my favorite thing about him though, was he knew when something was wrong with me. he didn't have to ask, he would automatically know something was wrong, and he would make me tell him. and he would sit there for hours listening to me vent about everything. he would text me when he woke up, and would continue until we went to sleep that night. we hung out almost every day that i was able to this summer. it just hurts to know that in a blink of an eye, everything is gone. i love this kid, and now, he won't even look at me in school. it hurts, alot.


Quotes by heyitsme30


Yesterday, I hung out with him.
it was the best day I've had in a long time.
we were just hanging out,
I posted a picture of him on my instagram

My ex liked it.
later that day, I logged onto instagram, and sure enough, my ex posted a picture of him and the girl he's currently talking to.
It really surprises me that it didn't affect me. but to be honest, it's the best revenge knowing that your ex is trying to make you jealous of his new girl when you're perfectly happy with your new boy.
I did it.
He's jealous.


I still have hope that we'll happen again. 

I wishcould 
 but I know I can't  


when I was younger 

  I'd put my arms in my shirt and told people I lost my arms.
I would restart the video game everytime I knew I was going to lose. 
I always slept wall all of my stuffed animals so none of them got offended.
I had that pen with 4 different colors and I always tried to push them down at the same time.
I used to pour soda into the cap and acted like I was taking shots.
My hardest decision used to be deciding which Nitendo game to play. 
I would wait behind a door to scare someone, but I'd always end up leaving because they were taking too long or I had to pee.
I always pretended i was sleeping so I could get carried to my bed.
The only reason I ever went on the computer was to go on paint.
My only "fake" friends were invisible. 
I got so scared when I swallowed a fruit seed because I thought a tree was going to grow in my tummy.
Getting bruised knees was so much better than a broken heart.

we all wanted to grow up so quickly
.... why?


why would you tell me you love me
...if you didn't



my brother got his first college
                                              acceptance letter today! 

  Cody, I am so proud of you. I can't believe this time has already come. It feels like just yesterday you and I were running around the house playing hide and go seek. I'm going to miss you so much when you leave. But I know that you're going to do great. You're going to make that baseball team with no question about it. I'll try my hardest to be at every home game to support you as much as I possibly can. Good luck Cody. I know you're going to go far in life.

I love you Cody


1.) Would you hug your ex again? I wish I could
2.) Why did you and your last ex break up? We never saw eachother 
3.) How many girlfriends or boyfriends have told you they loved you? three of them, but i know only one truly meant it.
4.) How many girlfriends or boyfriends did you actually love? 1
5.) Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? unfortunatally 
6.) Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? I'm not sure..
7.) Are you happier single or in a relationship? I'm happy I'm single, but I love being in a relationship with him.
8.) Would you ever lie to get an ex back? If you were once in a relationship with them, why would you ever lie?
9.) Have you ever been cheated on? same kid.
10.) Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? yeahhhh.
11.) Have you ever had your heart broken? who hasn't?
12.) If you could go back in time and change things, would you? yes.
13.) Do you still love your ex? with all my heart.
14.) Do you believe that you are a good girlfriend or boyfriend? not at all. he deserves so much better than me.
15.) Have you ever dated some one who was not good to you? him.
16.) Have you dated someone older than you? yuuppp
17.) Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? it depends.
18.) Do you believe in love at first sight? at times.
19.) Ever want to get married? who wouldn't want to?
20.) Ever kissed your friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? No.
21.) If given a chance, would you like to have your ex back? at times I'd consider it..
 22.) Still Friends with your exs?  we talk everyday.
23.) Do You Like Anyone now? yes.
24.) Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? not that i'm aware offff..
25.) Do you think your ex still has feelings for you? I know he does. I just hope he isn't lying about it.

When I need someone to cheer me,
don't text me asking what's wrong.


you know what hurts?

  - feeling left out.
- losing a friend.
- not talking to him.
- when he hurts you.
- getting into a fight with someone who means the world to you.
- knowing someone is hurt, but there's nothing you can do to help.
- making plans then being ditched.
but what hurts the most?
when you're always there for people when they need it.
but when you need someone to talk to, nobody can ever return the favor.