Jillian Marie*

Status: I don't even know...
Joined: August 30, 2013
Last Seen: 9 years
Birthday: December 23
user id: 370443
Location: somewhere over the rainbow
Gender: F

Hi I'm Jillian and I like warm hugs.

{+} Doctor Who, Sherlock, pop punk music, Orange is the New Black, Gotham,  Broadway, marching band, 
writing, John Green, Harry Potter, Starkid, lacrosse, sarcasm, girls, demisexuality,
inside jokes, the outdoors, tacos, my band geeks, my Jesus freaks, my Sunday School kids,  loud and off-
key singing, purple, orange, Frozen, bowties, button downs, beanies, Starbucks, cats, and smoothies

{-} Being mainstream, pink, homophobia, rude people, my family, Algebra Based
Physics, romance novels, healthy food, doing stuff, bad jokes, stereotypes, team
sports (especially softball), cheaters, disloyalty, gym class, short hair, and being ignored

I may seem kinda quiet but once you get to know me, I'm really not.
Basically, run.




 
 

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KeevahLikesJam 1 decade ago
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Thanks for the fave!(:
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nicole🌹* 1 decade ago
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Thanks for the fave! :)
I love Frozen too.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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No probs!
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Kira♥* 1 decade ago
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are you a Whovian? ;D
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Yahssssss <3
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Kira♥* 1 decade ago
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hehe ^-^ who's you favourite? mine's 10 and 9 c;
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Ten all the way :3
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glitter on my hands* 1 decade ago
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I know this is going to sound kind of awkward, but after reading your quotes I just wanted to say you're probably a bit of a role model to me. Okay bye.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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How did you sleep?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Fine actually. You?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I didn't sleep. Again. I'm so exhausted.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Aww darling that's not good...you need sleep.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I know. I'm not sleeping by choice. I just can't get my brain to shut off.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Missing you, have a great day. I love you
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I miss you always darling...
And you have a good day too you lucky girl...I need a midwinter break XD
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Have a great day darling, I love you.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I probably won't, but thanks for thinking of me. iloveyoumore.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I hope you slept well and have a great day at school. I know you are worried about certain things but I can tell you confidently that you will never be your father. I love you and I know who you are and who you will be. You can't be that. Have a great day, Princess.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Thank you darling...I hope you know how much this means to me. I always look forward to coming on here in the mornings before going to hell (wait, I mean school). You have a wonderful talent for cheering me up. Everything you say means so much to me, though I don't always show it. And as for being my father, you can't say where I'll be in ten years besides married to you. You never know...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I do though. He has hurt you so much that you will do everything you can to not be that person, you will never be him because he has hurt you so deeply. You won't be your father, you will not.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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If you say so darling...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Jillian, you're not going to be your father.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Holly I know this is kind of random but I really want to cuddle right now. Like today was just a bad day and ugh.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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What happened? And I want to cuddle too...
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Gym happened.
Our team was too big and guess who everyone else voted off the team? And yeah when I went to the team our teacher moved me to, the stupid wh.ore captain had the fcking nerve to roll her eyes and whisper great under her breath acting like I'm somehow deaf. And I got my first B on a test...which ik I probably shouldn't be complaining about but my parents were mad.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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You're still perfect in my eyes
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Awh sweetie *blushes madly*
Um so today was slightly better I guess. I made a friend in gym :D
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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That's good, I knew you would. What's his/her name?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Her name is Maya. She's pansexual (and before you get jealous, also happens to have an adorable ftm boyfriend) and the sweetest person ever. We were weight lifting partners today and then when Coach A wasn't looking, we went outside and threw snow. She's the only girl in the class that isn't a total gossip.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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That's good
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Holly baby I feel like you're jealous now...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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No, I mean I don't have any reason to, do I?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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No it just seemed like you were.
How was your day?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Fine I guess. I went out with my dad and he bought me a new purse and a cd and then took me out for sushi and I have been watching 2 broke girls since.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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What I would give to be there with you...
So what CD did you get?
And also, I know this sounds weird but lately I've felt like I don't know a lot about you. I mean I just want to know little things like your favorite candy and your favorite ice cream flavor and yeah...idk if that's weird or not.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Pure Heroine by Lorde
And no it's not weird.
Reese's
Cookie dough
Or pistachio
Or rocky road
Or any
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Awh sweet I love Lorde :3
And any weirdly personal questions you want to ask me?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Favorite soup
Favorite childhood movie
Favorite fruit
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Clam chowder
Peter Pan (still haha)
Watermelon(:
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Hi baby, how are you feeling?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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A lot better actually. I have off school today for President's Day and tomorrow for a teacher work day, so I still have some time to recover. I fell asleep on the couch last night and when I woke up, I felt so much better. I haven't eaten anything yet, but I'm just taking it easy for today so yeah...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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That's good, I have the whole week off (mid winter break) but I wish you could be here. It's a burning ache and I just need you here. It's not even a want, it's a need.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I know baby. It's the same way for me. I know if you were here, things would be so much better.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Well, worse seeings as your parents hate me, but as soon as we got away, yeah, better.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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My parents are just...ugh. I don't even know if they hate you but idk. It's their fault that you had to tell your mom so I understand if you hate them. I think I've asked this before, but do you think your parents would like me?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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If my parents ever accept me then probably. I don't think my dad will ever accept me but I don't know... And I don't hate your parents, I just hate how they treat youz
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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So do I baby...
And I wish there was a way to make your parents accept you. I really want our kids to have grandparents...or any kind of family. My dad raised my brothers to be homophobic, and basically the rest of my family is really conservative so idk...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Idk either... I have to go, I have to go babysit my kids so ill be home in a few hours. I love you.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I love you more <3
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I'm home. How are you feeling?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Fine. I slept in my bed for the first time in two nights and honestly I feel so much better. I had a bad nightmare though...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Do you want to talk about it darling?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I'm about to go, so not now.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Later then. How do you feel today?
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Fine. Okay so I know you're not going to like this nightmare. I hated it, and the worst part is that I can't deny that it won't happen. We were probably around thirty and we were married and had kids. The thing is, it mirrored the way my family is now. I was like my dad and I always yelled at our kids and was stubborn and pushy. We fought all the time and it just felt so real. Baby girl, I am so incredibly afraid of growing up to be like them...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I'm afraid, too.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I couldn't stop looking at you for the first clip and had to rewatch it and then I started crying and I'm trying to be quiet but oh my god, Jillian.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Oh my god I'm so sorry I didn't mean to make you cry baby...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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No, good tears
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Oh good...I was kind of worried lol :P I hope you enjoyed my over exaggerated wink...whoo awkward alert(;
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I did
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Hahaha that's good...I was really worried you wouldn't like it
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Why would I not like it?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I'm crying
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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So that Econ test, I got a 100%
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Baby that's amazing *high fives* you really are the best, you know that right?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Not the best, by many people standards, but I try.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Well you're beyond amazing by my standards darling <3
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I really need you tonight. I have had a utterly terrible day and just need someone to distract me from life. Please come on soon....
And no I'm not going to cut or anything. I just need someone right now.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Holly I'm so sorry I wasn't on...what's wrong?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I just had a really bad day
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Want to elaborate on that? Or was it just bad?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I woke up in tears first off, then I ha to babysit for five hours which I love but I just wanted to talk to you, an then I got home and I had terrible stomach pains for like two hours and it hurt to even move, and all night long I just wanted to be with you and it just was bad.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Holly that's awful. I wish I could've been there...I want to be with you all the time, not just the few times I can get on here during the day. Ugh...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I do too... Babysitting made it worse. The little girl is so adorable and all I could think was "I hope ours is like her."
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Aww ours will be adorable baby...like their mother <3
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I want them... Now.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I know so do I darling...only a couple more years to go.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I hope you know I love you. Even though you are stubborn as all get out, I love you. And hearing about you hiring yourself because of something someone who, in ten years, won't matter. I understand how it makes you feel but it hurts me to see you hurt yourself and give in to what they say. So sleep well and stay strong, please baby, it's killing me not being able to protect you from yourself. It is literally killing me. I love you, sleep well. And, for the sake of whatever god there may be, stay strong. Please, baby.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Holly this is why I love you so much. After all my parents said to me, I started doubting but now I know for sure. You believe in me no matter what and I can't thank you enough for that. You give me something to believe in. All these times you've saved me and now you're saving me again and I love you for that <3
Oh and I never got to tell you my good news (at least there's some around here)...I finished applying for my first part-time job. Gahhh I'm excited :3
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Of course I believe in you, Jillian, why would I not? It frustrates me so much the amount you don't believe in yourself. And that is good news, I hope you get it.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Thanks darling <3
And honestly, you know I hate the amount you don't believe in yourself as well. You're beautiful, okay? I'm not.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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You are, Jillian. As much as the star shine you are twice as beautiful.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Meh...
You're even more beautiful than that.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Whatever you say
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I hope you know, I didn't sleep one bit last night. You don't like to be ignored? Neither do I, but now, I'm just right out angry. I hope you're happy, Jillian, cause I'm sure not.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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Holly I'm sorry. I cut because a lot of crap went on yesterday and I was just fcking tired of it. As soon as I came online to explain, the internet security kicked in and kicked me out. I really wanted to explain and ugh...I'm on my friend Amber's phone now so I probably won't be back until I get my nook back, which should be soon. I just...everything sucks here and seeing as how gym just went I might have to find some more space to cut. I'm sorry baby...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Don't you dare cut. Just hang in there, for god sake just hang in.
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Jillian Marie* 1 decade ago
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I don't know how to hang in anymore...
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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You think of me. I can't even explain how angry I am. If you cut again I will be outraged. If you feel like cutting you think of us. Think of our past, our FUTURE. Think.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I don't know what happened, but I doubt the anxiety attack I have been having all night was worth it. I don't know what is going on, but I am so disappointed. There is so many people you can go to, you have Maddy, and Anna, and all your band friends. Why did you do it? Please, tell me, because I just don't get it. Just let me know what happened so I don't spend all of tomorrow freaking out and having anxiety attacks all day, it's worse as it is. I just... I'm disappointed you did it. Disappointed, and angry. That is my body, you're supposed to be keeping it safe.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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I really don't find this funny or amusing. I saw you come online, and go offline. I'm already upset, just tell me what happened before I get mad, please.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Say something.
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Please, please! Just come on here, I am freaking out. WHAT HAPPENED?
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nevergrowup89 1 decade ago
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Jillian. Please.
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