You know that smile?
The one I flash at my friends when I see them in the hall?
The one I show off when someone says something funny?
The one that I used to share for no reason?
Yeah, well it's fake. 100% of the time.
I want to try, but it's getting
too
hard.
I'm so close to throwing away everything with both hands.
And I'm scared that there will be no one there to help me
pick up all the broken pieces.
Lately, all I want to do is cry.
But for some reason I can't.
And I'm left with this pain in my chest
that won't go away no matter what I do.
It hurts.
And I just don't know what to do anymore.