pandagurlie

R A N T

Hey, I haven't been on in like forever, but tonight I really just started to break down everything to my dad. I never used to trust any of my family members. I hate it when people who know my sister tell me "Ohmigosh! You're sister is so cool, I love her! We're bestiessss!" No. Seriously do not say that to me unless you want to get punched in the face by me. And I know that this sounds so stupid, but I always knew my mom thought I was "different" or just not "one of the girls". How? She makes me do so much work while her and my sister sit inside and just watch tv shows all day, she'll take my sister shopping and when I ask maybe once a year or less to go get nee jeans or a new shirt she'll tell me she never has enough free time for me. And tonight, it's sleeting, hard. And every night someone walks our dog so she doesn't go to the bathroom in her room, it ALWAYS is me. No matter what. Never my brothers or my mom or anyone else. But always me. And tonight the wind was going really hard and it loosened the umbrella. I come inside freezing cold, and my mom tells at me that it's my fault that the umbrella broke, that it's my fault I got the mat wet, that it's my fault I'm nothing like my sister. I'm sorry but I'm not perfect. And whenever I get a bad score, my dad tells me something like, "Aw, homey, it's okay, you'll do better on the next one!" and hug me. My mom? she tells me how worthless I am. Sorry Steve for this enormous, pointless rant to all of you guys. I just really had to get that out and tell someone other than my dad, this isn't even the whole thing, there's so much more.

RANT OVER.

It's hard having a long distance relationship, because you know you'll probablly never meet them in real life.

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My friend makes a post about saving a girl who lives all the way in Ohio that gets bullied, cuts, and wants to potentially hang herself. Eveyone says "Oh, thats terrible why do people do that to her?! This is horrible!" things like that, but when I need help, someone in their school that gets bullied, cuts, and wants to kill herself, do you see them being supportive? No. You don't. you see them telling you to kill yourself, and those two or three that try stopping you just don't matter. These people in my school amd town can be total hypocrites.

When those sappy love songs come on, I'm not sure who think of anymore...

I'm trying so hard not to pop the pills or cut a little bit too deep, but I just don't know anymore...

 

 

 The Heart Project
Each colour represents a different thing
Comment yours


Blue - Depression

Red - Self harm

Green - Eating disorder 

Orange - Sucicidal

Purple - Anxiety 

Yellow - Recovering 

White - Recovered 

Black Out Line - Need help




Draw the colour heart of which you are on your wrist 




nmf/nmq

 

My mom and sister both got sick and threw up, THE DAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING.
Now my whole family expects me to cook the whole thanksgiving meal... I'm 12... This isn't right when theres a 22 year old boy who can cook in the house.