The Quiet*

Status: I'm Sorry
Joined: April 8, 2013
Last Seen: 2 weeks
user id: 356166
Location: I'm failing somewhere, why does it matter?
Gender: F

<Sweetie, I'm so depressed.>
 

Quotes by The Quiet*

I should have known better 
then to share witty with people
who weren't always going 
to be a safe place. 
-bwsyl
What I said instead..

"Are you still mad at me?"  

"so much is happening i cant focus on your stuff either" 

....some stupid rude stuff

"Do you want a break from our relationship while you are so busy?"

"Ok" 

"That's it?" 

"Yeah I'm going back to work now."


 
yeah im going back to work now



What I said instead..

"Are you still mad at me?"  

"so much is happening i cant focus on your stuff either" 

....some stupid rude stuff

"Do you want a break from our relationship while you are so busy?"

"Ok" 

"That's it?" 

"Yeah I'm going back to work now."


 
yeah im going back to work now



I wait for you pop online or for a reply 
I genuinely love getting a response. 
it hurts me that I'm always initating contact 
(I'll get interrupted  by him when he says he does all the calling but he also forgot how he told me he hates when I call him) 
I feel like I'm always waiting for a message. 
The truth is i feel like I'm just an option for you. 
there's no effort from you in this relationships anymore. 
your priorities are quite obvious and I know things have changed.  
it feels like you don't care about us anymore?  
(interrupted  by saying how i don't care and it's my own fault for not communcating with him)
I understand that people find more interesting things to do. 
Please don't make me feel like a clown. 
Can you be honest with me?
When you asked me if i was happy in this relationship and i said yes without a second thought. 
were you looking for an out?   
just tell me and i won't bother you again.  
(he'll go on sayinng how i said i was happy and fine and this is stupid and me feeling lonely and wanting him to do so much is not possible)
i'll sit and listen to him scold me on how wrong i am for feeling this way. 
when he could easily just  say yes. 


I wish he'd take a chance to see it from my point of view
even just once. 
because i think im finally at my last thread. . .


who are you kidding, you know you will let him
step on you over and over again. 
because the idea of letting that thread go 
hurts you more then anything else he could say. 

 
*how was work* 
me talking about small things 
slowly stops 
when I realize
the small echos 
of reels and his giggles 

he wasn't even listening
he never effing does 
why do you keep thinking 
he's going to change 
he DOESNT CARE ABOUT
WHO YOU ARE AS YOU NOBODY DOES!
Stop taking away my freedom of speech
I can't post a status 
I can't post a reel 
without you making it about yourself 
Why can't I just like a quote
or be upset at a friend 
and just be free
to say what i want 
without you 
making me feel 
so damn trapped. 
When my go to songs are 
Narcissist and Bare Minimum 
I should get some help. 
 
I don't know what I'm holding onto anymore 
I just feel crazy 
all the time 
 
years ago I made a quote
about a boy who smiles for free 

I realized I'm the one who smiles for free 
that boy never really smiled  
it was me. 
why do I smile?
becuase you told me it's perfect
but you didn't really.  
I just want someone to say it. 
I want the person I love 
to write words that make me 
stop posting sad things on witty.