Status: cheers~
Joined: January 10, 2012
Last Seen: 7 years
Birthday: June 8
user id: 262210
Location: !!!
Gender: F
hi i'm lauren

Quotes by lemon*

It's not your fault...
If I were you, I'd hate me too.


You're right, we would "never work out."

I wish R.I.P meant

"ReturnĀ If Possible"

I thought you were mine, but not anymore.


We're really quite nice and friendly,
but everyone has a beastly side to them, don't they?

Wow. After over a year of being inactive from Witty,
There's nothing interesting here anymore...
I can't believe that my home is gone.

I had a bad day.

I hate myself. I hate who I am. I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wake up with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to school in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack. Would anyone even care if I were gone? I walk around feeling empty inside and nobody notices. Why can't anyone see how sad I am? Can't anyone see how much pain I'm in? Can't anyone see my struggling to stay alive? I hate myself even more for having these thoughts. How weak is that? Why can't I get over it? I ask myself if this one cruel joke God is playing on me. Is this payback for all the bad that I've done in my life? I feel like the biggest piece of trash this world has to offer. I've been told that my whole life, so what does it matter if I live or die? I feel like I'm a burden to my family. I just want to be free from all this. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I didn't look in the mirror and feel ashamed of who I am and what I've done. I hate my appearance. The way people look at me and judge me based on what I look like. I hate the feeling that people never notice I'm bleeding inside. I smile even though I want to scream and break down. What's hardest is transformation. Changing. I've tried loving myself, and even changing myself, but neither has worked more than temporarily. I still end up hating myself. I'm worthless. If there is nothing left to stay for, why hang around and suffer?

    your lips look so lonely...
would they like to meet mine?    


Things to do today:

1. Get up
2. Survive
3. Go back to bed