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i'm just so conflicted. cause i know life is good. but this

i'm just so conflicted. cause i know life is good. but this depression. this sad sulky feeling always comes back to me. i tell myself it's like happiness. happiness will always come back. in the same way, this sad unsettling feeling will also come back. but it is never forever.

it still feels awful. i feel like i have to always distract myself so i don't feel it. it's this feeling of dread. i thought i would be happier by now and i am but here i am still.

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Dudu*

posted January 20, 2024 at 3:31pm UTC tagged with status, story, quote

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