If you
see me
laughing,
going
out,
& enjoying
food,
showing
off
my progress-
please
let
me be!!!
There
was a
time
when
I stayed
in my
room,
cried,
could
not
eat,
didn't
take
care
of myself
& didn't
celebrate
my life.
I'm
just
trying
to live
again-
I'm
coming
back
for everything
& I'm
done
sleeping
on me
🥂✨💖
New WIG Moon
I wait for you pop online or for a reply
I genuinely love getting a response.
it hurts me that I'm always initating contact
(I'll get interrupted by him when he
says he does all the calling but he also forgot how he told me he
hates when I call him)
I feel like I'm always waiting for a message.
The truth is i feel like I'm just an option for you.
there's no effort from you in this relationships anymore.
your priorities are quite obvious and I know things have changed.
it feels like you don't care about us anymore?
(interrupted by saying how i don't care and
it's my own fault for not communcating with him)
I understand that people find more interesting things to do.
Please don't make me feel like a clown.
Can you be honest with me?
When you asked me if i was happy in this relationship and i said yes without a second thought.
were you looking for an out?
just tell me and i won't bother you again.
(he'll go on sayinng how i said i was happy and fine
and this is stupid and me feeling lonely and wanting him to do so
much is not possible)
i'll sit and listen to him scold me on how wrong i am for feeling this way.
when he could easily just say yes.
I genuinely love getting a response.
it hurts me that I'm always initating contact
I feel like I'm always waiting for a message.
The truth is i feel like I'm just an option for you.
there's no effort from you in this relationships anymore.
your priorities are quite obvious and I know things have changed.
it feels like you don't care about us anymore?
I understand that people find more interesting things to do.
Please don't make me feel like a clown.
Can you be honest with me?
When you asked me if i was happy in this relationship and i said yes without a second thought.
were you looking for an out?
just tell me and i won't bother you again.
i'll sit and listen to him scold me on how wrong i am for feeling this way.
when he could easily just say yes.
I wish he'd take a chance to see it from my point of
view
even just once.
because i think im finally at my last thread. . .
who are you kidding, you know you will let him
step on you over and over again.
because the idea of letting that thread go
hurts you more then anything else he could say.
even just once.
because i think im finally at my last thread. . .
step on you over and over again.
because the idea of letting that thread go
hurts you more then anything else he could say.
*how was work*
me talking about small things
slowly stops
when I realize
the small echos
of reels and his giggles
he wasn't even listening
he never effing does
why do you keep thinking
he's going to change
he DOESNT CARE ABOUT
WHO YOU ARE AS YOU NOBODY DOES!
me talking about small things
slowly stops
when I realize
the small echos
of reels and his giggles
he never effing does
why do you keep thinking
he's going to change
he DOESNT CARE ABOUT
WHO YOU ARE AS YOU NOBODY DOES!
Stop taking away my freedom of speech
I can't post a status
I can't post a reel
without you making it about yourself
Why can't I just like a quote
or be upset at a friend
and just be free
to say what i want
without you
making me feel
so damn trapped.
I can't post a status
I can't post a reel
without you making it about yourself
Why can't I just like a quote
or be upset at a friend
and just be free
to say what i want
without you
making me feel
so damn trapped.
I get my thrills from my story
telling
because we are dry old married
couple.
It's at this point that
I'm starting to understand what people mean when they say a
tattoo lasts forever.
When I look at my body and see only what used to be but is no longer there.
When I am constantly reminded of some of my hardest moments.
At the time I thought they would be reminders of what I overcame- but today they feel like reminders of pain.
They feel like I'm telling the world of a moment I feel stuck in, they feel like a scream for help that was ignored. They feel like a part of my life that I can't stop carrying.
I feel trapped by who I was in that moment.
When I look at my body and see only what used to be but is no longer there.
When I am constantly reminded of some of my hardest moments.
At the time I thought they would be reminders of what I overcame- but today they feel like reminders of pain.
They feel like I'm telling the world of a moment I feel stuck in, they feel like a scream for help that was ignored. They feel like a part of my life that I can't stop carrying.
I feel trapped by who I was in that moment.
