It feels like I fell harder after I called it to be over.
I'm feeling more pain, months and months later.
It hits me sharp, right in the heart, at random times.
You cared about me so much and I couldn't believe that.
Maybe I was scared.
We're in two different worlds, anyway.
But I still feel it in my chest.
Maybe it's because I don't know what could have been and I
simply chose to push you away.
I push people away.
That gap still has not been filled.
I'm so confused.
I like my independence, but I also miss being wanted.