I know that I am falling too hard, too fast, but I don't know how to stop it.
I feel schadenfreude, but about me.
So here's
my heart
for
you
if you
want
it
It's got a couple bruises on it
Sometimes
it breaks
down
And it doesn't work quite right
But
you
bring
it back
to live
You bring it back to life 💜
~The words I can't say through my mouth flow through the
streams that are considered my tears~
Partly I'm depressed because of him. To be honest, everywhere I
go, something always reminds me of him. I go to a place and I
remember the times that we had there. I see a similar car of his, I
think of him. The list goes on. Another part is past memories. I
was much more happier back then. It was calming and nothing could
stop me. I am being stopped from enjoying life because of my
sadness. All of this is my fault because I let the thought get to
me. I hate myself for letting myself feel the way I do.
~The
text
I expected
the
least
made
me smile
the
most.
Especially
when
I couldn't
in the
moment,
on my
own
or from
a certain
someone~
----ACTUAL TEXTS----
2:47 PM
Okayyyy so emily and pebs both see me as their daughter, so i have called them "mom" and " dad" before and thanks to society, daddy is viewed as the " FASTER " or " HARDER " Daddy shizz
2:47 PM
That was the first time it slipped out as " daddy" though
Dusty💚🔑💯 2:48 PM
Im.... done....
Dusty💚🔑💯 2:48 PM
💀
2:49 PM
I AM STILL A GOOD KID
Dusty💚🔑💯 2:49 PM
You're just proving my point mam...
2:50 PM
When the frick did i become a "mam" i literally just called myself a kid.
2:50 PM
And
2:50 PM
It
2:50 PM
Slipped
2:50 PM
Okay
One thing I hate about myself is telling others and trying so hard
to convince them you're happy . . . and then an hour later, I admit
i'm falling apart.~~~ One thing I love about myself is that, I at
least, admit what I lied about at all.
