What I said instead..
"Are you still mad at me?"
"so much is happening i cant focus on your stuff either"
....some stupid rude stuff
"Do you want a break from our relationship while you are so busy?"
"Ok"
"That's it?"
"Yeah I'm going back to work now."
"Are you still mad at me?"
"so much is happening i cant focus on your stuff either"
"Do you want a break from our relationship while you are so busy?"
"Ok"
"That's it?"
"Yeah I'm going back to work now."
I wait for you pop online or for a reply
I genuinely love getting a response.
it hurts me that I'm always initating contact
(I'll get interrupted by him when he
says he does all the calling but he also forgot how he told me he
hates when I call him)
I feel like I'm always waiting for a message.
The truth is i feel like I'm just an option for you.
there's no effort from you in this relationships anymore.
your priorities are quite obvious and I know things have changed.
it feels like you don't care about us anymore?
(interrupted by saying how i don't care and
it's my own fault for not communcating with him)
I understand that people find more interesting things to do.
Please don't make me feel like a clown.
Can you be honest with me?
When you asked me if i was happy in this relationship and i said yes without a second thought.
were you looking for an out?
just tell me and i won't bother you again.
(he'll go on sayinng how i said i was happy and fine
and this is stupid and me feeling lonely and wanting him to do so
much is not possible)
i'll sit and listen to him scold me on how wrong i am for feeling this way.
when he could easily just say yes.
I genuinely love getting a response.
it hurts me that I'm always initating contact
I feel like I'm always waiting for a message.
The truth is i feel like I'm just an option for you.
there's no effort from you in this relationships anymore.
your priorities are quite obvious and I know things have changed.
it feels like you don't care about us anymore?
I understand that people find more interesting things to do.
Please don't make me feel like a clown.
Can you be honest with me?
When you asked me if i was happy in this relationship and i said yes without a second thought.
were you looking for an out?
just tell me and i won't bother you again.
i'll sit and listen to him scold me on how wrong i am for feeling this way.
when he could easily just say yes.
I wish he'd take a chance to see it from my point of
view
even just once.
because i think im finally at my last thread. . .
who are you kidding, you know you will let him
step on you over and over again.
because the idea of letting that thread go
hurts you more then anything else he could say.
even just once.
because i think im finally at my last thread. . .
step on you over and over again.
because the idea of letting that thread go
hurts you more then anything else he could say.
*how was work*
me talking about small things
slowly stops
when I realize
the small echos
of reels and his giggles
he wasn't even listening
he never effing does
why do you keep thinking
he's going to change
he DOESNT CARE ABOUT
WHO YOU ARE AS YOU NOBODY DOES!
me talking about small things
slowly stops
when I realize
the small echos
of reels and his giggles
he never effing does
why do you keep thinking
he's going to change
he DOESNT CARE ABOUT
WHO YOU ARE AS YOU NOBODY DOES!
Stop taking away my freedom of speech
I can't post a status
I can't post a reel
without you making it about yourself
Why can't I just like a quote
or be upset at a friend
and just be free
to say what i want
without you
making me feel
so damn trapped.
I can't post a status
I can't post a reel
without you making it about yourself
Why can't I just like a quote
or be upset at a friend
and just be free
to say what i want
without you
making me feel
so damn trapped.
Which mask to wear, which
wear to mask.
When my go to songs are
Narcissist and Bare Minimum
I should get some help.
Narcissist and Bare Minimum
I should get some help.
I don't know what I'm holding onto
anymore
I just feel crazy
all the time
I just feel crazy
all the time
years ago I made a quote
about a boy who smiles for free
I realized I'm the one who smiles for free
that boy never really smiled
it was me.
why do I smile?
becuase you told me it's perfect
but you didn't really.
I just want someone to say it.
I want the person I love
to write words that make me
stop posting sad things on witty.
about a boy who smiles for free
I realized I'm the one who smiles for free
that boy never really smiled
it was me.
why do I smile?
becuase you told me it's perfect
but you didn't really.
I just want someone to say it.
I want the person I love
to write words that make me
stop posting sad things on witty.
I'm tired of fighting
no more weapons
my bones are yours
I have nothing left.
how did this happen again?
I never learn my lesson.
no more weapons
my bones are yours
I have nothing left.
how did this happen again?
