yesterday i gave up yesterday i overdosed on sleeping pills i

yesterday i gave up
yesterday i overdosed on sleeping pills
i didnt want to die and i didnt think i was overdoseing
i just wanted a few days where im not in this world....
when im unconcious
and i found out that my boyfriend does really love me and that i really love him because even when i was almost unconcius i was still yelling for him
i really wanted to see him
my mum now wont let me out of her sight
she doesnt get that im not going to do something stupid
i am depressed and semi suicidal and a cutter but i cant screw up that many lives
i was already selfish enough to do this
luckely i have the best friend in the world and she met up with me and kept me as safe as she could
only a few people know and they all said stuff like how could you do this to me
but what they didnt see was the pain in my eyes before and they didnt see that it could be much worse
and i didnt want to hurt them i didnt want to hurt anyone

i nearly died last night but today i feel better then i have in days is that wrong??

i love you all xx sash