Heey, I'm Lauren. 16 years old, and born and raised in Vancouver, Canada.
Birthday: July 24
My life revolves around family, friends, and music.
I loooove to read and write, and one day I hope to become an author.
One of my many obsessions is The Beatles.
I love watching movies, especially the classics and Disney.
Music pretty much explains my life. I can find a song to fit any situation I'm in.
If you ever wanna talk just comment on here.
Okay, bye! :)
an
ipod
is like
memories.
i used to skip songs on my
ipod, the
ones i didn't
like.
then i realized they're like moments in
life,
and you can't skip through life.
there are moments in life you absolutely
hate, and
want to skip
but sometimes you gotta keep on
listening.
just because it
doesn't start out
great,
doesn't mean it won't have its own great
moments.
then there's your 'most
played,'
your favourite songs.
the songs you know every word by
heart.
those are your
memories.
they can be happy,
sad,
angry or
crazy,
but each song comes with its own
memories,
whether it be good or bad.
you have your happy songs, which remind you of all the things
that once made you ( smile
).
you have your sad
songs,
that you'll play even if they bring a tear to your
eye.
there are the songs you play when you're
angry,
that
you belt out to let it all out.
you have your crazy
songs, the
ones that remind you of all the [ good times ].
there's the songs that remind you of past crushes or
boyfriends, they never fail to remind
you.
there are songs from your
childhood, they
let you { reminisce }.
and then you find those perfect songs, ones that
completely relate to your life at the
moment.
one day those songs will become
memories,
reminding
you exactly how you
felt.
and just like an ipod you can pause, fast
forward,
stop, or
rewind those memories.
you can put it on
replay, and
listen to those lyrics that describe those
memories perfectly.
and
i just
want
to know
how
you
felt.
when we hung up the phone, did you feel
any regret at all? did you stare
at the
phone in your hand, as the realization of what
just happened began to sink in?
did you have a ( hollow ) feeling in your chest
knowing that you just lost someone
you once cared about? did your breath catch in
your throat and turn into a sob?
did you sit there and replay our last words
- our final
goodbye - in your
head?
did you wish you could take back all the things
you said and did?
in the morning, did you wake up ready to send that 'good morning' text? did
you
walk into school searching for
me? when we passed each other
in the hallway,
did it take everything you had not to look up at me and
smile? when we
talked,
were tears threatening to fall, was your voice
breaking with every word you said?
when you got home, did you realize what a big
mistake we both made? did you
wish we'd worked on
it, instead of giving up so quickly?
did you wish i didn't snap
at you? did you wish things
between you and
i hadn't become so messed up?
did you wish we didn't end?
It takes more strength to hold it in, than to give in and surrender.
'Why'
is the first thing that we learn, the last thing we
remember.
Baby,
tears don't make you weak, if I could only make you
see.
It's okay to
cry...
Somewhere along the way we're taught to keep it all together,
We mask the pain we feel inside to make everyone else feel
better.
You wrap your arms around yourself, and bury all your sorrow.
You can't hid from your emotions, baby, they'll still be here
tomorrow.
If your heart won't let it flow, I want you to
know,
It's okay to cry...
I'm learning to live my life without you. It's difficult and sometimes I wonder how I wonder how I'm even gonna make it through the day. I still have those days where all I wanna do is sit at home and cry because every little thing I see or do reminds me of you. It's hard, I'll admit that. And having you text me on a regular basis, it kills. I wanna be friends still like you said, but it's so difficult seeing you and knowing it can't work between us anymore. That trust we had, it's completely gone. And I don't think we can ever fully get it back. Like you said, we had some fun times. I don't think fun even begins to describe it. The time we spent together was amazing, for me at least. And I think at one point you did like me, you'd never out right say it, but the way you acted around me and treated me showed it. But I pushed too hard, and like any normal boy you got scared and pushed me away. I just hope one say we can get back to where we used to be, before everything went terribly wrong.