Truth is, you make my heart dance in circles. You make my stomach
bounce up and down and turn into a nauseous mess every time you
look at me. You're the one person who I fear every day will
forget me, just because I feel so easily forgettable. I fear that
you don't feel the same way I do and will move on to someone
else if I don't prove myself to be worthy. In the short time
you've been in my life, you've changed me. You've
changed the way I look at myself, making me realize that I do
have the ability to love someone so strongly. And I do love you,
I just haven't had the chance to tell you because of the fear
of rejection. I've never felt the connections I feel with you
with anyone else that has ever come across my heart. Distance
really does make the heart grow fonder and stronger. Being
distant from you for these long periods of time has made me
realize just how much you mean to me. It makes me look forward to
the next time I see you, the next time I get to hold you. And
boy, do I love holding you. I feel so safe and in such a perfect
place. When I sit alone, you make me an emotional mess because
I've never had these feelings before and I don't know how
to handle them. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I can't stop
smiling, and sometimes I have a more neutral feeling, none of
them ever being intentional. You've shown me a side of
me that I never knew existed and I can't thank you
enough. I love it while at the same time having no idea what
I'm dealing with. I'm scared every day that you're
going to find someone better and I'll be left with the
feeling of emptiness and not being needed, but I need to trust
you. I need to learn to trust you. I trust your eyes; they look
at me like I've never been looked at before. I trust that not
everyone you've laid eyes on has been looked at like that,
like I've been the only one who's been special enough.
I'm not sure what my eyes are saying, but I do know that I
could look at you forever. Looking at you forever would mean you
would always be within my reach. I want to spend every day with
you for the rest of my life. I'm young, I know, as are you,
but all of this feels so real. It feels like I never want to let
go of what we have- I never want to let go of you, and I never
want you to let go of my heart. You have truly captured my heart,
my soul and my mind. I let you inside of me and now you're
the only one there, the only one that I want to be there. I love
everything about you, every little detail. You do have flaws, as
do I, but I've already learned to love them. You're the
one person I never want to leave me. If you ever did I don't
know how I would react or how I would handle it. Honestly, I
can't even imagine myself without you. When I let my mind
wander, it goes directly towards you. You've taken up every
part of me, and to be truthful it is kind of scary, trusting you
with everything I have. I'm willing to give you all of me for
right now and hopefully forever. The future never really comes;
we have to just live day by day, falling even more in love and
never letting go, then the future will be everything that I want,
and I'll have you forever.