running is like another way of cutting for me. i run until i can barely breath, just the heavy breathing as if the next breath will be my last makes me feel better. i run to keep my thoughts away and when someone makes fun of me while i run, i just push harder, each time believing i'm getting one step closer to my final breath. i run because i can hurt myself to keep the emotional pain away but no one can tell because there are no scars for them to see.
"Skies are crying. I am watching. Catching teardrops in my
hands. Only silence, as it's ending like we never had a
chance. Do you have to make me feel like there is nothing left of
me? Would it make you feel better to watch me as i bleed?"
Would it Jess? because you are one of the main reasons i cut so
much. but guess what.... now "I'm standing on my feet,
you can break everything I am, try to tear me down, but I will be
rising from the ground like a skyscraper."
(I know this isn't exactly how the lyrics go, this is just
the way i would speak it to the one who has hurt me the
most... "Jess")
Let go of the razor.
But down the knife.
Take a step back
And look at your life
I know it can be tough
I've been there before
I know what it feels like,
like no one cares anymore.
But believe me,
things will turn out ok.
Don't look back
And don't delay.
The sooner you overcome
what you're hiding inside
The easier it will be
to have self-pride.
You may not want to listen
to the cliche I've been saying
But know that I care
and that I will be praying.
(all
mine)