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posted July 31, 2012 at 12:13am UTC tagged with
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I want to scream but I can't. My mom's sleeping in her room right now. Have you ever felt like you're stuck? You're not moving? Time has stopped and it feels as if your feet are cemented to the ground? That's exactly how I feel. My life is continuously unraveling, I swear. It never stops coming undone. I want my life back. I want my siblings back, I want my mom back, I want my dad back, I want my family back, I want normality back. The best two people in my life have moved, doing great things in their lives. Making everyone proud. My parents just recently have gotten divorced but it feels like they aren't even my parents anymore. My mom's always to busy with her new boyfriend, always. Can't remember when it was just me and her... My dad? Well he's been around, but not really "around" He's trying to hold together just as much as I am. My best friend, ha well i'm not even sure she's even my best friend. I am so scared to lose her but if she was really my best friend, she wouldn't purposely try to make me feel mad or left out. It's those decisions that tear me apart. Shouldn't I be able to talk to a best friend about everything in my life? I thought that that's what a best friend is for? but, we've been friends for so long that I don't know any different than her. Her family is mine, mines non-existent so there's not a family of mine to be hers but her family has done so much for me in the past. It's a scary thought of letting that all go. I dont want to, but honestly... That decision is all up to her. Thank god for one girl, really holding me together. Even though we don't say "bestfriends" I really think she is one. For some reason, I find myself wanting to tell her everything, like I trust her with my life and she wouldn't ever think of me differently. I know she doesn't consider me a "bestfriend" but, I'm glad I consider her mine. I'm sitting her tonight, just thinking about anything and everything and I haven't felt this in my heart for awhile... but there's an ache in it. As freaking cheesy as that sounds, there is. I'm realizing all that has changed, all that is about to change, everything not right, how much is messed up, this isn't the life I had a year ago. Everything was so much more simple. My life is so stressful as of right now. I'm only 16. Things shouldn't feel like this. I know so much could be worse and let me tell you right now, I am SO thankful for what I got, so don't for a second think that i'm ungrateful... Because, i'm not. I love the people I have in my life, i'm just questioning who they really are to me, not that they mean any less to me, because they don't. I'm just waiting and hoping that things will look up.. Things could get worse, but i'm really stressing they don't... If you have read this whole thing, ohmygosh. I am suprised, i'm sure no one really did and I don't care. Because if you hadn't read my about me, this isn't for anyone, but me. Its about letting things out and helping myself, I'm not looking for sympathy because honestly, i'm not even sure if these "issues" of mine are even things to feel sympathetic about but, It's making me feel a whole lot better already... I have a feeling that I might be doing this often...
- Just_InCase
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I remember when people would tell me "There's never a time when you're not smiling" Honestly, I miss hearing that. It makes me realize how much I have changed, for the worst. I'm constantly thinking of negative things, I used to be that one optimistic person, about everything. I used to be my own person and never let anyone control what I was gonna do. That day, when I was told I was more of a follower than a leader, it really shot straight to my heart. That sounds rediculous, that something so easily said by another person could affect me so much, its not like its something that was meant to hurt me but I was never like that before. I miss the girl I used to be. I smiled, I laughed, I made other people laugh, I made other people feel good about themselves, I was friends with everyone, I miss that. I hate all thats changed about myself. Instead, I'm crabby 90% of the time, I cant make others laugh, I find myself being rude to people, there's people that don't like me. I'm not okay with all that. This isn't me, this isn't who I was supposed to become. Where am I? Who am I? I lost myself.
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We met in kindergarten. We were best friends.
She always told me she loved my eyes. I didn't quite know why.
I was in love with her, so of course my face lit up immensely whenever she said it.
She was beautiful, kind, and extremely funny.
We'd be talking about nothing, and she'd turn to me and whisper,
"I like your eyes."
One day, I was playing basketball,
waiting for her to drive over to my house to have a game with me.
Suddenly, I got a phone call.
It was her mom. She was in a panic.
I couldn't quite understand what she was saying. It sounded like,
"Aaron, come quick! Kelsey, accident, Main Street! Blood. Come now!"
I had no clue what happened,
so I ran to Main Street with my basketball shorts and a tee shirt on.
I saw Kelsey's mom helplessly crying, waiting for the ambulance to arrive.
I saw a totaled car, blood everywhere.
Then I saw her, Kelsey.
My heart stopped as I frantically ran over to her.
"Kelsey? Kelsey!" She was unconscious. I started crying.
I know it isn't very manly, but I couldn't help it.
Before I could say anymore, the medics took her away,
the main source of blood coming from her head.
I went to the hospital that night,
I went every night.
in fact, the only time I left was to go out to eat, but that's it.
The doctors tried getting me to leave, but I refused.
It was all my fault.
If it wasn't for me, wanting to play basketball with her,
she wouldn't be going through this.
It was already four days, and she hasn't woken up.
On the fifth day, I saw her eyes gently open.
"Kelsey?" I called.
She wasn't quite awake yet.
Suddenly, doctors came rushing in, telling me I had to wait outside.
I did, for a few hours.
One of the doctors finally came out saying,
"I understand that you're Kelsey's friend, Aaron?"
"Yes," I whispered.
He bit his lip.
"She woke up, she's fine,
but I'm afraid she has long term memory loss."
"Are you serious?" I almost shouted.
"I'm afraid so."
I didn't meet his gaze. I couldn't.
I wasn't going to say anything, so he spoke again.
"You can go see her if you want,
but she doesn't remember anything, not even her mom."
I walked in, trembling in horror.
I saw her. She looked helpless as she slept.
I waited a few hours, until I saw her eyes opening gently again.
I expected doctors to run in, rushing me out.
Instead, she looked me straight in the eyes, and whispered,
"I don't know you, but I like your eyes."
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I want a person who
comes into my life by accident,
& stays on purpose.
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When guys get jealous
it's kinda cute (':
When girls get jealous
World war III is about to start.
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