idk what it is but i just cant forget that night, the conversation,

idk what it is but i just cant forget that night, the conversation, that feeling, i can even rember exactly where i was sitting and what i was wearing, idk what it is but i just cant forget it... maybe because that night killed me, whatever was left of me is gone now, when i read that message, its like i could feel the last of me slipping away, now im just a person, my name, my paersonality, my talents, none of it matters now, this how i felt in august but this time i think its perminate, the one thing thats missing, the one thing i need, ill never have...