Maybe it's
just me...
But I enjoy crying. I enjoy the feeling of crying out all the pain,
like each tear represents each time someone hurt me. I don't
cry instantly. Usually, the hurt and the memories just build up in
my mind like a wave and then as soon as something hits me in my
soft spot, that wave comes crashing down. I love being able to sit
in the shower and let the water conceal my tears. I love sitting in
the rain and letting it wash away my pain. I love the numb
feeling that comes after I'm finished crying. I love
crying into my pillow at night, trying to hide my sobs from
disturbing everyone else, trying to sleep. I love
being able to feel that sadness deep inside me be represented
in tears. It proves my pain is real.
Or maybe that's just what depression did to
me...