Meany23

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100 truths
1. Real Name : Yasmeen
2. Nickname: Smeen
3. Favorite color: Black
4. Male or female: Female
5. Playschool School: CDC
6. Primary School: Bellevue
7. Secondary School: Bellevue
8. College: KCC soon
9. Hair Color: Blonde
10. Tall or Short: Short
11. Sweats or Jeans: Sweats
12. Phone or Camera: Phone
13. Health freak: No
14. Orange or Apple: Apple
15. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes
16. Eat or Drink: Eat
17. Piercings: Ears
18. Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi

HAVE YOU EVER:
19. Been in an airplane: So many times
20. Been in a boat? Yes
21. Been in a car accident: No
22. Been in a fist fight: No
23. First piercing: Ears
24. Longest Friend: Skyler
25. First award: I can't remember.
26. First crush: Shawn

YOU KNOW THAT ONE WORD:
29. Last person you texted: Tara
30. Last person you talked to: Mom
31. Last person you watched a movie with:  Sam, Tayler and Aneesah
32. Last food you ate:  Pasta
33. Last movie you watched:  The Perks of Being a Wallflower
34. Last song you listened to: Total Eclipse of the Heart - Jill Andrews
35. Last thing you bought:  Probably food

FAVORITE:
37. Food: Fried chicken
38. Drink: Idk
39. Hate:  People
40. Flower: Idk
41. Animal: Dog
43. Movie: Idk
44. Subject: None

HAVE YOU EVER:
(Put an x in the bracets if you have)
45. [x] fallen in love with someone.
46. [x] celebrated Halloween.
47. [x] had your heart broken.
48. [] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.
49. [x] had someone like you
51. [ ] got pregnant.
52. [ ] had an abortion.
53. [] did something I regret.
54. [x] broke a promise.
55. [x] hid a secret.
56. [x] pretended to be happy.
57. [x] met someone who changed your life.
58. [x] pretended to be sick.
59. [x] left the country
60. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.
61. [x] cried over the silliest thing.
62. [x] ran a mile.
63. [x] went to the beach with your best friend.
64. [x] got into an argument with your friends.
65. [x] disliked someone.
66. [x] stayed single for 2 years since the first time you had a boyfriend/girlfriend.

CURRENTLY:
67. Eating: Nothing
68. Drinking: Nothing
69. Listening: the T.V.
70. Sitting/Laying: sitting
71. Plans for today: just get through it

YOUR FUTURE:
73. Want kids: I think so
74. Want to get married: Yes
75. Career:  I have no clue
76. Lips or eyes:  Eyes
77. Shorter or Taller: Taller
78. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both
81. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship, hook-ups are fun though
82. Looks or personality: Personality

HAVE YOU EVER:
83. Lost glasses/contacts: No
84. Snuck out of a house: Yes
85. Held a gun/knife for self defense: No
86. Killed somebody: No
87. Broken someone's heart: I'm not sure if I broke their heart, but I hurt them.
88. Been in love: Yes
89. Cried when someone died: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself:  Not really
91. Miracles:  Yes
92. Love at first sight: No
94. Santa Clause: No
95. Aliens:  Idk
96. Ghosts: Yes

TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes
98. Do you know who your real friends are: I'm not sure if I have one
99. Do you believe in God: Yes
100. The End?: Ok

Cross Off the Things You Have Done
Graduated high school
Kissed someone
Smoked a cigarette
Got so drunk you passed out
Rode in a police car for something you didn't do
Rode every ride at an amusement park
Collected something really stupid
Gone to a rock concert
Help someone
Gone fishing
Watched 4 movies in one night
Gone long periods of time without sleep
Lied to someone
Snorted cocaine
Dealt drugs
Been in a car accident
Been in a Tornado
Done hard drugs
Watched someone die
Been at a funeral
Burned yourself
Ran a marathon
Cried yourself to sleep
Spent over $200 in one day
Flown on a plane
Sat first class on a plane
Cheated on someone
Been cheated on
Written a 10 page letter
Gone skiing
Been Sailing
Cut yourself
Had a best friend
Lost someone you loved
Shoplifted something
Been to jail
Dangerously close to being in jail
Skipped School
Skipped a class
Had Detention
Got in trouble for something you didn't do
Stolen books from a library
Gone to a different country
Dropped out of school
Been in a mental hospital
Been treated in a mental hospital
Have watched all the Harry potter movies
Had an online Diary
Fired a gun
Had a yard sale
Had a lemonade stand
Actually made money off of the lemonade stand
Been in a school play
Been fired from a job
Taken a lie detector test
Swam with dolphins
Gone to seaworld
Voted for someone on a reality TV show
Written poetry
Read more than 20 books a year
Written over a 30 page essay
Gone to Europe
Loved someone you shouldn't have
Befriended someone you shouldn't have
Used a coloring book over the age of 12
Had surgery
Had stitches
Taken a taxi
Seen the Washington Monument
Had more than 5 im's/chats online going all at once
Overdosed
Had a drug or alcohol problem
Relative to someone with a serious alcohol/drug problem
Been in a fist fight
Gone surfing in California
Had or have a pet hamster
Pet a wild animal
Used a credit card
Did "spirit day" at your school
Dyed your hair
Got a tattoo
Had something pierced
Known someone with HIV or AIDS
Fell in love/ had or have a crush on your bestfriend

I so badly want to live in New York City in an apartment with big windows so I can have lots of natural light and place little plants on their sills and watch the sun rise and set every morning and night, I want to sit in bed with a book and coffee and blankets and listen to the noisy traffic and never get annoyed by it because it'd be so exciting to think about how much life is being lived all around me, never stopping for a moment, I want cool artsy friends who will go with me to thrift stores and art galleries and concerts, friends who will stay in with me and watch Netflix for hours and hours, friends who I can waste disposable camera film on and friends who will go to McDonalds with me at 3 in the morning to eat fries and talk about nothing and sit in the park till the sun creeps into the sky, but I also want to be alone.  I want to walk down the sidewalk on my own and sit in coffee shops on my own and buy flowers for myself on my own.  I want to blend in, invisible to anyone who doesn't care to acknowledge my existence.  I want to create my own little world within this large city, surrounded by other people in their own little worlds, hoping that mine could collide with some of theirs.  I want newness, I want the unknown.  I want the possibilty of being to go wherever and see whatever and be whatever and do whatever, the possibility of bumping into you.  I've dreamt about this for so long and it hurts my heart to think about how I may never have it.  I may never get to experience walking blocks and blocks just to meet up with a friend for brunch, or photographs of memories in the city at dusk, stuck to walls with scotch tape, I'm so jealous of everyone who's grown up there, or been able to move, or go to school there, or live there even just for the summer, and maybe it's not at all what I dream of it to be, but I want to find that out for myself.  I can't imagine living my life and wanting this so badly and never having it.  I don't know how to end this but I just really want to be in NYC.

                    The hardest
                       part is
                  waking up in
                  the morning
                   remembering
                   what you
                  were trying
                    to forget
                 last night

Remember, 
    today is the
   tomorrow you
worried about
             yesterday.